i should have died a long time ago.
IF there was a painless way to kill yourself, I would have already done it. That is the ONLY reason I am still alive. I really shouldn’t be. I constantly think about ending it; even in times when nothing is really wrong. Life is a daily struggle. Every day, I only SURVIVE. I am never living. I constantly pray not to wake up in the morning and every time I do, it pisses me off more and more every time. My life ONLY gets worse every year. I also can’t STAND who I am. I don’t get why god is so much kinder to the people around me and why I have to suffer more than most people I know. I highly DOUBT ANYONE I know is similar to me. I highly doubt anyone else I know knows about this site and posts on it and thinks about ending their life like I constantly do. I also doubt that anyone I know is as fucked up as I am. Seriously, what are the chances that anyone I know knows about this site and also what are the chances that anyone else I know wants to die as badly as I do? It would be really nice if there were more people like me that I know in real life and it would also be REALLY nice if I could meet someone from this site in real life. My life is absolute shit and I wish I knew more people who could say the same. I just hate life and I want to die immediately.
for anyone wondering about why my life is absolute shit, check out some of my other posts and read them.
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Agreed Noah, I think that applies to most of us. If suicide was easy, painless, quick, we wouldn’t be here. Unfortunately because there is no simple method, nor is Euthanasia readily available, we’re all stuck in our situation, some of us are trying to make our life better so we can enjoy it instead of wanting to die.
Do you ever feel like there should be a painless way to commit suicide?
Did you try going to church? If you went to church maybe “god” would love you more.
But I’m beginning to question if God is about faith or following along with the leaders
On the dollar bill it says “in God we trust”
If money is your problem maybe going to church would solve your problems.
Money and “God” must be linked
Yes I do go to church. But the thing is; I hate God more than anything in the whole world;that is no exaggeration. Money is not my problem.
Also I know that god will love me whether I go to church or not. But I still don’t like him back. I don’t feel like explaining why either. I just hate god.
Trust me, god exists. And he is an ASSHOLE.
Money is not my problem. And the other thing is: I hate God more than anything in the universe.