I really wish I knew people in real life who are on this site. It would really help me feel like I can relate to people a lot better. I very seriously DOUBT that anyone I know knows about this site and I also highly doubt anyone else I know has considered suicide like me. Maybe one or two people but that’s about it. Sometimes I really wonder if anyone I know knows about this site and I just don’t know it.
why do I always have to be a minority? Why isn’t most of the world suicidal? Why don’t most people want to die or kill themselves? Why aren’t most people as fucked ip as I am? Why don’t most people hate god as much as I do? I seriously doubt that most people have similar feelings to me. I really wish I knew more suicidal people. I HATE being surrounded by all these people who are SO MUCH happier than me, and generally have a better life than me.
i just CANNOT picture anyone I know googling or thing about things like “how to die” or about the ways they are feeling. I can notice some problems that people I see nowadays have, but I just literally CANNOT picture them doing these things that I do. I can’t IMAGINE for a SECOND anyone I know posting on this site or even KNOWING about it. I mean , seriously, WHAT ARE THE CHANCES that anyone I know has had a suicide plan like I have in the past? Because I just googled,” what percent of people are suicidal?” And it said that about 1% of people in THE WHOLE WORLD have a suicide plan. And to be honest that COMPLETELY SURPRISES ME. I’m surprised it’s not 20% or even 10%. It also said that only 3.5% of people have suicidal thoughts. I don’t know if aall this is true or not, but it’s what I read on google. Why such small numbers? Why must I be like this? I don’t know how to end this, but I just want to say, in closing, that I wish I wasn’t such a fucked up person.
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People who actually go through with suicide are even a smaller minority, like 3 in 10,000 (0.03%). I’ve met a few people irl who think about suicide, a few who attempted. One who succeeded. I never opened up to them, nor did they open up to me.
I think the comraderie we feel here isn’t just because we’re suicidal. It’s because we’re suicidal and ANONYMOUS. Ask anyone here who has met anyone else from this site in person. It doesn’t go well.
That’s why I think this is such a great site for suicidal support, the best on the internet. The site owner has mentioned a few times that anonymity and privacy is key when dealing with something as taboo as suicide, and I’ve come to understand that. I hope this site never becomes like Facebook or like a stupid dating site or whatever. Sad as it sounds, I hope we all remain unknown to each other.
I just want to ask, why do YOU think the number of people who commit suicide is SO LOW?
YOU ACTUALLY KNOW SOMEONEONE EHO COMMITTED SUICIDE? I don’t know even ONE PERSON.
Yeah, only a FEW who think about suicide. I JUST DONT UNDERSTAND why it’s not the majority of the world. this is all totally confusing to me. I just don’t understand it.
How come so many people think about suicide, but ONLY A FEW go through with it?
I agree, how can anyone NOT think about suicide?? I can’t believe their lives are that much better than ours. I think most people’s lives suck, but the difference is other people have friends and decent careers and dreams and things that distract them from their sucky lives.
Yeah I’m a magnet for depressed people. Probably because I find depressed people to be so much more interesting so I listen to them ha ha. My one friend who killed himself, I never would’ve guessed because he hid it so well.
It’s really hard to actually kill yourself, at least that’s how I am with it. I think about it all the time, but doing it is completely different. I think the more you think about it, the harder it is.
I would look up statistics, quite a lot of people go through with suicide. There is one country in particular where a TON of persons kills themselves. I think it’s Guyana. It is on Wikipedia article. I think the people you know don’t kill themselves cause they are too busy being rational and thinking they are in a high-tech era so thoughts and different things will make a difference. But really, it doesn’t. They preach such false beliefs/ some false ideas/ such meaningless help.
My friend in 8th grade. (2007, right)
I just flashed back to this memory.
We were talking about how we were going to kill ourselves
I said “I don’t want to live, bro, I’d rather end my life before growing up”
She said “I’m going to overdose on drugs” I think she also thought about cutting her wrists in the bath.
I said “I’m going to jump off cliff so I can feel the drop in my stomach while free-falling.” I was reading Catcher in the Rye with her at the time. Or shoot myself because it is painless and a lil less scary than jumping.
Anyway I found out 2 years ago when I was still looking for a way to get a gun that she died. We hadn’t talked since 8th grade.
I have no idea how she died but I wonder if it was suicide.
So we predicted our own deaths.
Probably more than you think, however, I think most people like life… They might go through some tough times but then they have this mindset ”what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger”. Which I think is kind of stupid… Not everyone can just forget their suffering in life.
Most people are very pro-life though… and let’s not forget most people spend their life avoiding the topic of death.
You’re absolutely right, the mindset you said IS stupid. Wanna know MY mindset? “What doesn’t kill you makes you wish you were dead.” I also REALLY want to know: WHY MUST the majority of people in the world, be “pro life”?Because I’m not really that “pro life”.
All of this that I have said so far is EXTRAMELY confusing and I just want some answers for my questions.
Hey, I know that this will sound INCREDIBLY stupid, but it actually BOTHERS me how these numbers I mentioned are this small. I mean if I didn’t know, I would guess that they would be at least a little bit higher.
No, it doesn’t sound stupid. It’s very hard to understand how some can be so content with this life thing. Maybe their life haven’t been that bad… I mean, I think to choose death over life, you have to be in extreme agony..? If one had the option of never being born, how many would choose not to be?
But here’s the thing- I WOULD have chosen death over life if death was painless. I AM in agony CONSTANTLY. And in my opinion, it doesn’t take as much as some people think for a person to want to die
I don’t understand how people can be so content with life either.
Yeah, same. Constant agony and pain makes me wish I had never been born. Who really knows how their brains work though.
Just watch animals eating and killing each other, and then ask them if life is beautiful! They probably still would think so, it is horrifying. I wonder if this is actually hell?
I also wonder if anyone I ever met is going to commit suicide like me. Although this site says no partners, I am kind of looking for a partner. But not on here. Well I kind of need a partner because I’m too freaked out to purchase gun on my own. Because I worry I will be reported and caught and found out and taken to be homed with insane creepy freaks. Because every one judges me without knowing me. I feel like if I could meet someone who seems like the gun type they could walk in and purchase the gun. And we could drive off somewhere and pull trigger. I don’t want body to be found because I don’t want the guilt associated with ending my life.
This is the reason I’d probably never show up to a highschool reunion, or probably why I have no friends. I’d get very jealous knowing people I knew lived happy successful lives and I just struggled all my life never getting anywhere. I wish all the time I wasn’t cursed with mental illness. I wish I knew what it was like to enjoy life to the fullest. All I see is despair. It’s a pretty brutal world we live in.