I got one of those Facebook memory things today from last year. The post I shared read, ” I Talk Myself Out of Suicide Every Day. I’m Afraid That One Day I Won’t Bother”. I shared that post 7 days before I tried killing myself (nearly successful). It’s basically been a year since I nearly died. I’ve been alive another year, and the only thing I managed to accomplish was ruin every friendship I had, for dumb things. But I have too much pride to tell any of them that or apologize. When I woke up, I had hoped I lived because I was going to be happy. I’m not happy. I haven’t been happy. I’m more depressed than ever. I have no one. No friends, no parter. I have family, but family that doesn’t care to try to understand what’s going on with me. So basically no family. Everybody knows I’m damaged. I’m treated differently because I’m so damaged. They think I don’t notice, but I do. It doesn’t help me, or make me feel better. It makes me isolate myself & think I’m not enough. I’m just.. I’m done fighting myself to live. I’m done getting over emotional with others. I’m done. My time is up.
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It’s been less than a year since my last serious attempt. I’m broken. I know I am broken. I’ve made promises to my sister that I won’t try again because of how much it hurt her when I broke, but I still want to die.
I feel your pain, life is a struggle, a rollacoaster to say the least, I defiantly understand what you saying, feel the same, but at the end of the say something is keeping us going, head up, solider on, take day by day, you never know what good could come next.
But what if you had the possibility to finally be happy? What would you need to be erased so that you don’t feel broken?
I, myself, am tired of my life. For many many reasons. My life is a torture for me because I am useless and incapable of doing anything. And all I try to do, I destroy.
But then I see all the other people who enjoy their lives. They don’t need to suffer from being alive. They can have confidence in themselves and know how to handle life. They are able to reach their goals and be happy.
And this is what I what to do, too. I don’t want my life anymore. But I also don’t want no life. because that would be all I had if I killed myself. No, I want to have a new life. I want to change my life so that it is worth living. A life that I enjoy to live instead of a torture.
i don’t know how I could get there. I don’t know how all the other people do this, and why I am not able to do this myself.
But I want to have more than just the decision between torture or nothing at all. And obviously this is possible because there are many people out there who are having exactly this.
Do I deserve less than those people? I want to have this, too.
And all of you deserve it, too.
I post things on Facebook like that probably the most of anyone in the world