My life is horrible,I have no friends,no one likes me,and no one wants me around.I am bullied constantly on an everyday basis.I am bullied everyday by the people who are meant to serve and protect us…the police.Everyday for me is a nightmare,I hate to leave my home every time I leave my home I get really bad anxiety attacks,I’m followed by police cars and police helicopters.There’s police helicopters flying over my home all hours of the day and night.I’ve had police stop me for no reason and I’ve even had police yell at me and curse at me.I’m not a criminal and I haven’t done anything wrong so why is this happening to me? I’m trapped and there’s no way out.
I have honestly had thoughts about killing myself just so I can get away everything that’s going on.I have even pictured myself killing myself.I’ve pictured myself jumping in front of a speeding car,hanging myself,slitting my wrists,stabbing myself in the heart,or shooting myself.The scary thing is that now I hear voices talking to me and they always say “Do it and it’ll all go away!” Suicide is the best option for me,I just can’t take the abuse anymore.I’m gonna kill myself,nobody will care.Nobody will even miss me.
I hate myself so so much,I’m a worthless,useless,unwanted slime.I have absolutely no purpose in life anymore.I don’t belong anywhere so what’s the point of me sticking around any longer?
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In the neighborhood where I grew up the police presence was strong. Many a night my bedroom window lit up like lightning had struck nearby but it was the search lights on the police helicopters. Eventually the city council defunded the helicopters, for better or for worse.
Oh and then when I got my first car, police would stop me at least once a week and just ask to see my license and registration and then just say thank you.
One time I was just a pedestrian and got stopped and questioned.
I eventually understood why I was a police magnet and I finally got myself out from under the scrutiny.
you mentioned a lot of other issues and I could put a check mark next to just about every one of them to say me too at one time. That is a lot of trouble to sort out if you do decide to sort it out. I am still working on it.
I was in the mall and heard a voice tell me to kill myself once. It was like a creepy clown voice, it said, “Why don’t we all go kill our selves today.” I’m like, “I might????” Lmao. Was scary AF
I have same problem with cops. I’ll just be out shopping or something then a cop will pull me over search me for drugs when I have none and say I was speeding while going like 5 mph over the speed limit. I also have nightmares of cops. I had a nightmare I was pissibg by a gas station then all these f*gs come out and try to get in my car and I have to lock doors and roll up windows to get away then I drive away but like 6 cops are coming towards me in all directions and then I’m actually arrested like 2 weeks later. It was the first time I was arrested.