Well hey people of the Suicide Project….. Its me again . Ive posted before about the loss of my GF of two years due to my family . I’ve raised a wonderful kid in that relationship he’s 5 now and reading im proud of him ….. Its been a month since the last time i saw my (Ex) and i still miss her & little man everyday . I know she wont take me back . We got along so well never argued and always laughed with eachother….. Love her more than life itself . Which speaking of life ….i dont see a point anymore . No money …. Cars gone ….my woman is gone and the one child that motivated me so much id even work two jobs to provide for what i saw as my little family or as we called ourselves ….is gone . Ill be honest i almost attempted . I bought a bag of Charcoal some mikes lemonade …eCIG which ive only used once prior in life . Figured why not enjoy last moments . But for some reason i couldnt do it ! I dont know why or if its the human bodys will to live or some freakish biological reason …. I was ready to light the Charcoal . (Sigh) …. I maybe actually do tommorow . Plan on lighting in roon and bringing my blanket my soft pillow and drink a few and attempt to die in my sleep honestly tired of tbe world . Tired of being judged based on social status lack of college ect and girls just want to many expectations….whixh im not intersted ….i loved my lady …amber … We had so many similar views both athiest we’d go out to eat and both in shape , take little man out with us to chuckee cheese as i chased him around …. It was a blast …two years . I miss them more tha. Anything . Tbis could very possibly be my second & final post ive set up a time to light the charcoal and maybe find peace ? Family most likely will find me but i dont care . Call me heartless . But i see every body else happy , kids & married . And im back home due to bad luck with my family turning against her . With a family i hate now . Wish me luck people ….i hope i succeed . And please no religious comments i mean your welcone too . But if i died the only thing id hope for is maybe see my baby sister again who died at 2 years old she’d be 22 now a year younger than me ….any other case give any god or deity the finger ….hopefully just nothingness . Tbanks people …..- Mike
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Hi Mike, have you tried calling her these days and talking to your son?
and one more thing, at least for your son. before you leave, please call your son and tell him that you wish him the best and hes gonna be a great man oneday. That will mean so much to him. Youre a great dad mike, you have done everything you could .Wish you luck for the best things to happen.
Best regards
goodguy
Is there any possibility of reuniting with Amber? Her son must miss you. I am truly sorry for your situation. You deserve happiness. If you die you lose that possibility.
We’re worried about you mike..
Yeah Mike. Like I told you on your last post. You’re a good man. The world needs good men like you.