I’ve been technically doing well, I’ve gotten a job. I don’t completely hate the people I work with nor do I completely hate what I do. I’ve started saving money and have become my own person, I have a bank account! It’s so weird how mundane things can make someone feel so elated. Like shit, I’m finally moving forward.
I still cry every night before I go to sleep, I still feel like an empty shape of air disguised as a human being. I still feel like I’m not doing good enough. However I’m no longer crying about my current situation, I’m crying about everything that’s happened to me. I can never not feel what I felt these last few years. I can never forget the pain inflicted upon me, albi things are getting better but it happened to ME. How I can stop the ache in my chest?
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time heals all wounds dear. trust me on this. congratulations on your job! but as the days go on and the nights fly by, your tears will get shorter and drier, your thoughts will get less vicious and they will stop tearing at your soul. your pain will transform into inspiration and determination. time heals all wounds