I wish I didn’t have to return to this state of mind its something I really enjoyed being away from. I met this girl and it was promising. Then it was changed in an instant. Like a car crash but mentally. Waking up one day learning someone no longer loves you is one of the hardest things o have very gone through. I have my problems but when I was with her they went away I was actually happy my life was actually fantastic. I’ve never felt so terrible or panicky in my life. It’s hard idk what to do. I guess I have my options will give it time. I’ll try not to play hangman but again always consider the options