Noose snapped still tied to my neck and I was too disoriented to tell, found myself in the bathroom looking in the mirror feeling extreme strain and not knowing why I was feeling increasing danger, and I said out “what’s going on?” thinking i had come out the noose hence the fact i was now in the bathroom away from the hanging wardrobe, I was confused I could still feel the tie and i started picking at it and then saw it was frayed, i pulled at it desperately until I could loosen the rope, I got it off and threw myself on the bed with my heart beating hard for 10 minutes, I have a bruised eye, one side of my throat is killing me, my wind pipe feels crushed and my right elbow feels fucked. Things where i tried to hang were strewn all over the floor and my phone was in pieces, which makes me think there was a struggle before i broke the tie. I wish I hadn’t got the noose off I only had about 30 seconds of consciousness to go, I’d be dead by now, my body doesn’t want it but every other part of my consciousness does, it’s the only thing for me to do without a doubt. I don’t think I would hesitate to overdose, I’d do it right now just to avoid the pain of waking up tomorrow let alone years into the future. Seriously need to get these drugs. I can’t imagine months of waiting like this, and I don’t want to make it a whole year of suffering before I can end it.
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Are you saying you lost conciousnes and the ligature snapped, or are you saying you never lost conciousnes and you had to stop cause of the pain?
I really feel like I need to end my life, this is too much for me.
I dont know what happened before the ligature snapped, i think as soon as i let myself hang i became very disoriented or briefly passed out. i just remember getting up and going into the bathroom thinking the noose slipped off my neck, not knowing the noose was still on my neck and very tight, i started feeling the most intense unrest from nowhere and no relief when i expected it, it took a while to realise i was being strangled hard, i didnt feel like i had much time, i wont have spoke out so loudly if i wasnt in danger, i was way past my limit, and instinctively i fought so hard to remove it, all of a sudden, life didnt seem so bad compared to the strangulation, i had only a few seconds before i wont have been able to undo the knot, im ready to do anything to get hold of the prescription drugs i need to die
what confuses me is i dont know how a radio that was in the wardrobe ended up on the floor with my phone and how my elbow got hurt. i dont know what caused the black eye was it from before or after the tie ripped, but that is proof that i came closer than ever. ill be pissed if the memory comes back to me and it turns out that i passed out before the tie ripped, i would have still succeeded if i couldnt get the noose off after
I did the same thing in the Medstar ER at a Baltimore hospital. They left me alone for hours and I took the nurse-call cord and made a noose. The only ER room with a bathroom. I tried twice. The door jam slipped and I bumped my head. Second time seemed like your experience, not with it and un-tightening noose. Bruises all over legs (hung noose on handicap rail in bathroom). FML. Robin Williams did it, what’s wrong with me?