the day’s ruined already..

I was doing fine not perfect but not bad to be honest but of course my mother just had to ask me about the scars under my tattoo and then proceeded the point out more scars on me and ask me what are those from? and theres so many.. In front of my friend, my dad, and my uncle. I just started wearing shorts again less than 2 months ago ( after I got my tattoo). She knows what self harm scars look like. Most people do. So why do that to me ? Obviously I tried covering it im trying to move on and nothing will come from saying it anyways it wont change the scars. Now I just feel uncomfortable I feel like my parents are going to keep looking at it every time I wear shorts but its summer so that’s literally everyday. Im just annoyed I want to be unbothered in that aspect its no ones business and I was the person who saved myself not anyone else not even when I spoke up and said something. For some reason her bringing it all up to the surface of my memory feels traumatizing.. the memories behind them all and the way I felt back then I don’t know its really freaking me out