Bad memories

I have bad memories of someone who says, “if I had it my way I would put him in a looney bin” fuck if I had it my way if I was strong enough I would kill myself not just bored with my life not certain about this life and wish I had the strength to end it all bipolar sucks my life is worthless to me at such times but I know if I ever do kill myself if I ever do that it would destroy everything that loves me but it would good for all those who hate and or don’t like me I am that point in my life where I don’t care about what people say at such times but my existence causes pain and pleasure to myself and to others people like me shouldn’t even be alive biological father sexually assaulted my birth mother while she was twelve but the good news is I have a place of my own and been adopted in a good family but sometimes I still want to die just kill me someone.