I know I shouldn’t let it get to me so easily. After all, it has only been 5 months since I was terminated from my job (no reason, just termination and a “go fuck yourself”). I should give it another year of job hunting before actually succumbing to the depression and hopelessness. Just like everything else in life, job hunting gets harder as you get older. If you are over 40 you might as well forget ever finding a good job again if you lose your job for any reason. Here in the U.S., everyone seems to think that older workers are slow, stupid, and unable to learn. They think anyone over 40 is “too expensive”. I have yet to see a good argument for any of this. Most people don’t even have the decency to tell you that they are not going to hire you after making you jump through hoops during interview after interview. Once they realize that you have that hideous disease of “old age” they just stop acknowledging that you exist and ignore you into oblivion.
Most people on this board won’t understand because they are still dealing with pimples and puberty. At least when you are young there is some sort of hope that things will get better. When you get old, you know that it will never get better, and all that sunshine and unicorn farts bullshit people have been telling you for your entire life is just that, bullshit. Since I am now almost 60, I can tell you for a fact that life just sucks from start to finish. Given what I know now, I should have kicked the plug out of the wall 40 years ago. At 18 I was short, fat and ugly with no friends and no future… but I had hope that something would get better. At 58, I am still short, fat and ugly and I know without a doubt that tomorrow will be worse than today. Take it from me… do it now. If you wait it just gets worse.
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I knew since I was 12 years old sir, that it will only get worse. I should have pulled the plug at 20 as well.
I absolutely agree with you. I’ll be 44 in 3 months. My last good job was in 2012. I was a few months away from being fully vested with the company. They fired me and said I was a threat to the other employees as well as to myself. All lies. I never threatened anyone. I just stood up for myself and didn’t take any abuse from anyone. I wasn’t afraid of these people. They still had the nerve to try and tell me what I needed to do with my life from that point on, to which I basically told them that it might mean something if I was still employed by them. Seeing as that wasn’t the case anymore though, they could take their so-called advice and stick it because what they thought of me didn’t mean f–k all from that point on. I had the pleasure of seeing the company be bought out a few years ago. I wish most of the time that humans would go extinct. Just give the planet back to the animals.
I also agree with you, OldCow. 100%.
I’ve never had a good job (Or one that lasted, anyways), never had money, never really had friends, never felt like I belonged or fit in. I never will.
You are right.. It’s all bullshit. I have absolutely no desire to go on and don’t want to feel this way for the rest of my life.
I can’t wait until I’m dead.
Hey at least you have lived your life. If you feel dread at your age because you can’t find a job, imagine the youngins like us who feel lost and hopeless because they can’t even start in this dreadful job market. And this doesn’t happen just in the US as well, it seems to be a worldwide phenomenon.
Most people I know live off of disability, if you worked your whole life in the past you can get up to 2200$/mo,
I had to live off as little as 200$/mo when I was unemployed for 4 years