Are you okay? How are you doing? (ignore this just venting)

  February 27th, 2019 by NotAnEdgyName

WHAT THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO ANSWER??
> I think about killing myself every day. Sleeping is hard when you know tomorrow you are going to feel the exact same.
STOP PRETENDING YOU CARE
YOU DONT CARE, ALL YOU WANT TO DO IS TALK ABOUT YOUR BOYFRIEND AS IF IT DOESNT HURT ME
(im emptying my emotional bank right now, my ex is asking me if im ok, vapid ****)
SHUT THE FUCK UP. STOP TALKING TO ME. EVERYTIME YOU TEXT ME OR SEE ME IT HURTS.
IM TOO NICE TO TELL YOU TO FUCK OFF, STOP TAKING ADVANTAGE OF THAT.
EVERY FUCKING TIME YOU NEED TO TALK ITS ALWAYS ABOUT HOW BAD YOUR DAY/WEEK/MONTH IS GOING
SHUT THE FUCK UP. YOU HAVE A JOB, A LOVING FAMILY, AND THE SOCIAL LIFE OF A FUCKING CELEBRITY. NOT TO MENTION MY REPLACEMENT.
(im not devaluing her feelings im just pouring mine out, dont judge)
THATS HOW YOU INTRODUCED HIM. YOU INTRODUCED HIM AS ANOTHER VERSION OF ME. FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU.
DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH IT HURTS TO KNOW THAT THE GIRL I LOVE MOVED ONTO A SHITTIER VERSION OF ME
(not that i think im the shit or anything, im quite humble. its just that hes me except an ugly fucking sadboy)
2 WEEKS AFTER WE BROKE UP NO LESS. JUST ADMIT YOU ARE COPING. JUST ADMIT THAT YOU DONT ACTUALLY CARE ABOUT ME
JUST ADMIT THAT YOU ONLY ASK ME HOW IM DOING BECAUSE ITS POLITE
WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO SAY?
> I made a hitlist and your replacement for me is right at the top
GET FUCKED WHORE
LIFE IS BETTER WHEN I FORGET YOU EXIST
LIFE IS BETTER WHEN I DONT HAVE TO DEAL WITH YOUR SHIT AS WELL AS MY SHIT
>boo hoo petty highschool drama, weh weh weh my boyfriend doesnt understand how i feel
GOOD I HOPE YOU TOO BROKE UP BUT YOU WOULD PROBABLY JUST HOP ON THE NEXT COCK
FUCKING WHOOORE FUCKING WHOOOOOORE ASDFUIFnko;sdg|
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HOW AM I DOING? HOW AM I DOING?
IM FUCKING HOMOCIDAL WHORE, UNDERSTAND?
TOO SELF AWARE TO SHOOT KIDS BUT NOT SELF AWARE ENOUGH TO NOT THINK ABOUT IT
IM JUST SOME EDGY ****** SHITLORD
FUCK YOU HUMAN GENOCIDE NOW
>why does everyone keep saying you are depressed, why dont you just tell me?
GET FUCKED WHORE YOU DONT DESERVE THE TRUTH. I DONT TRUST YOU.
I HAVE TO SIT HERE AND PRETEND TO GIVE A FUCK ABOUT THE SONG YOU AND MY REPLACEMENT ARE WRITING
IT SOUNDS LIKE SHIT FUCK YOUR DEMO
FUCK YOU AND FUCK YOUR WHOLE EXISTENCE
FUCK THIS SMALL TOWN AND EVERYONE IN IT
THE ONLY TIME I DONT FEEL LIKE A WEEDED OUT KILLER ZOMBIE DRAGGING MYSELF ALONG EVERYDAY LIFE IS AT 3 OCLOCK IN THE MORNING
BECAUSE I DONT HAVE TO DEAL WITH FUCKING FUCKS LIKE ALL OF YOU
MY NIGHTWALKS ARE THE ONLY THING KEEPING ME TRULY ALIVE
THAT AND THE FACT THAT MY FUCKING PARENTS HAVE SPENT TOO MUCH MONEY ON ME TO WASTE IT LIKE THAT|
FUCKING FUCK SHIT **** PISS BREATH FUCKER
I HATE YOU BUT IF I WERE TO SAY THAT IT WOULD DESTROY YOUR EGO
I HAVE TO PRETEND TO CARE SO YOU DONT SPIN OUT YOU FUCKING BPD ****
DENSE FUCKING *****
DENSE ASS ************
YOU DONT CARE ABOUT ME, MY HOBBIES, MY LIFE, MY FAMILY
STOP FUCKING ASKING
IM JUST ANOTHER PLACE FOR YOU TO DOWNLOAD YOUR SHITTY INSECURITIES AS IF YOU DIDNT HAVE A BILLION ALREADY BECAUSE EVERYBODY LOVES YOU
***** GET FUCKED
IF I REALLY WANTED TO I COULD GET YOU TO SUCK MY DICK
IF I REALLY WANTED TO I COULD GET WHATEVER THE FUCK I WANTED FROM YOU
THE PROBLEM IS THAT I DONT FUCKING WANT THAT BECAUSE I WOULD FALL BACK IN LOVE AND YOU WOULD BREAK MY FUCKING HEART AGAIN
STUPID WHORE WHY DO I LOVE YOU
FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU
FUCK YOU DONT SPEAK TO ME

but at the end of the day i know the next time you text me and say how shitty your week was, i will text back “oh really? that sucks.. you need to vent?”

CUS IM A STUPID FUCK AND I LIKE TORTURING MYSELF. FUCKING JESUS CHRIST FUCK SHIT

and i will sit there groaning and rolling around in my chair, wanting to gouge my eyes out every time you mention how you cant sleep and how hard work is

AND I WONT SAY ANYTHING BECAUSE IM A WEAK SHITFACE ****. WHY CANT I PULL SOME ALPHA SHIT AND JUST GET YOU TO SHUT THE FUCK UP

and when you ask how im doing i wont answer, again. for the 5th time in a row, or i will make up some shit “oh yeah im allright, school is a ***** but hey im fine”

FUCKING SHIT FUCK PISS ***** **** FUCKER WHORE SLUT RETARD ************

************ ************ ************

I STILL CARE THOUGH SOMEHOW SOMEHOW THROUGH ALL OF THIS I STILL CARE HOW YOU FEEL

i still love you, dense ****. stop talking about your problems to me and run them through your perfect replacement.

all i want is to forget you exist.

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