I guess I’m gonna keep saying it until it feels 100 p. cent real to me.
Last night, my brother molested me.
And why reveal this to some forum you may ask?
Because I’m not allowed to tell anyone else. And I want [need] to tell someone.
My parents are trying to steer me towards forgiveness. I’m not having it. I’m at my mom’s house and I haven’t seen him since the incident. I feel like my body isn’t mine. Like I will forever be marked by those cold hands on my breast.
I’m desperate for human contact just answer this stupid message I feel like I’m gonna implode. I can’t do this I just wanna rip my body apart. I left my blade in my mom’s room and she’s sleeping and I regret it and I just wanma run run run to someone that’s gonna tell me that i SHOULD feel angry and sad and violated and that praying won’t instantly solve things and hold me and rock me to sleep because God knows I could use some of that.