Feeling a little crazy

Time to vent.

I can’t cry. It feels like I need too, but I just can’t: It’s like the tears won’t come out.

I can feel them, sort of like my soul is crying (if that’s a good way to put it). And I have no explanation for it: I was feeling fine for this whole year, but then two weeks ago I started feeling this way again. It’s so difficult when you think you’re doing good, then you just get shit on again!

I can’t bother giving a flying fuck. I feel so apathetic. I complain, but don’t do anything about my problems. I just complain, then go on a website and say “oh, boo hoo, I’m feeling depressed.” Maybe, if I wasn’t so lazy, I could actually feel good. But no, I choose to talk shit and self-deprecate. Great job, self: You’re a moron.

Anyway, let’s say something positive. Obviously, not everything in my life is shit. Everyone has good moments. I’m getting out of school early tomorrow, and that’s awesome. Plus, I’m going to go to a store and see if they hire people my age and if they’re interested in hiring me. I’m pretty excited about the job, to be honest. It’s retail and I prefer retail to food.

So, does anyone feel the same as me?

Who knows.