I hope the higher power who sent me here can hear me. If not, then the universe will. I gladly told them to fuck off. Yes, and it felt good. I just don’t want to be here man. Already thwarted on my first suicide attempt and now I’m in my head is just torture. The depression is getting worse. It happens little by little then one day you just cant feel anymore. I’m going to hurt people if I cannot make my way out of this shit hole without inter-fucking-ference. Please kill me…
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First off, I would calm down. If you are quiet about it and settled, I am sure you can make your dreams come true and commit suicide very easily. If you are aggressive you might gain unwanted attention and have your day interfered. If you are quiet, calm, peaceful, the suicide will be easy. I was interfered in an attempt and although I would much prefer to have killed myself then, like I had planned for 15 or so years, I can always attempt again. Although, I was quiet, I did not know I was being followed. My last 3 years since the attempt, I have been followed and stalked and now that is basically all my life is. What I did was I bought a shotgun and planned accordingly to drive into the middle of nowhere and shoot myself to death. (I’ve been depressed my entire life and have never had a worthwhile existence, so I had been waiting 15 years just to commit ) … however there was one flaw in my plan and that was coming home before driving away to commit, because I didn’t know they had been stalking me so I didn’t know they would search me for weapons. It’s kind of a very big problem for the people who are pro-choice or pro-suicide because, like I said, I’d been desperately clutching for a way out for 15 years, and matter of fact, I have done nothing other in those 15 years than prepare for the day.. but I do agree, there is a big problem with people interfering because they want to assume what is right for you, even if you don’t respect them or EVEN know them.
Threaten to kill whoever is “stalking ” you. They should stop being nosy. I hate how society decides that our lives is not ours to take. I didnt know they gave it to us to tell us what to do and then everyone piggybacks on it. It’s horse shit. I’m gonna have to wait though. I’m going to have to get a gun. Preferably a revolver. Sigh.
Sounds like being a victim to the system, if you listen.