Its been a couple of days since I was so low that I considered it. Since then i made the decisions to go back to all my coping techniques instead of going back to anti depresents. Thanks to you guys who commented on my post. YOU made a differance in my outlook. I will persevere.
I have to remember that I have so much to be grateful for. I really do. I just wish I could stop living in my past. Put that shit away for good. Who knows what will be ahead of me if I just forgive, forget and move on. 1 day I will be strong enough. But for now, today, I am coping.I am not allowing my mind to make me feel like shit.