https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ro34dXuO9Dg&list=RDSmKgEwlLfu0&index=2
“And you, show me that life
Isn’t all about extending your time
No, it’s the perfect time for a bottle of wine
And why, do I still care?
About all who might recall me
For everything dies, so does memory” -Tamino
There has been too many times I have wanted to sabotage everything. I have to keep reminding my self to take a step back and take a look at the big picture. Its difficult to not give in. When in doubt, take deep breaths.
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Some days I think I’m fooling myself by thinking I can overcome my self sabotage, like it’s an underlying script whose author smiles with joy as I struggle. And somedays I take that sh*t eating grin on its miserable face and step on it.
May you have more “step on it” days than not.
Once! Good to hear from you! How have you been?
Ok, I suppose, all things considered. Haven’t seen you around in a while. How’s the locked down world treating you?
I decided to resume my studies but I didn’t account for quarantine. I am not an extrovert but, I do like the white noise people make around me. I dont mind silence but, if there is too much I drown in it.
Chuckle. I relate. I frequent grocery stores for social contact as well as food. I like the “white noise” reference. There is a thrift store (Goodwill) nearby that sells stuff by the pound and it’s also a great place to bask in people for a while. But only for a while. People call it “The Bins” because all the items are tossed into eight foot long rectangular bins on wheels and you get to dig through them treasure hunting. It’s kind of like digging through people’s trash cans without having to worry about their dogs attacking you. If it doesn’t sell at The Bins, it’s trashed or recycled. A lovely social climate as people fight for … junk.
Stay well, and good luck with your studies!
Thank you Once.