no place for tomorrow

Usually I read comments and wallow in my own negative torment, and somehow keep coming back for more. And usually leave “probably not so cheerful comments”. But in your case…

What about working at a different location, away from the troublesome individual(s)? Or even just getting a new work partner (if he is the issue)? If your partner is trustworthy, maybe talking to him a bit (but that can go horribly wrong as well and make everything even worst).

I consider people to be, at a very minimum, decent if they chose to be a first responder in EMS. You save people lives (or at least limit pain and provide conditions for best recovery possible). And if this is your calling, humanity would lose a positive asset if you were to go. So seems to me it might be worth fighting for. Of course easy for me to say since I am not the one doin’ the fightin’… Still, I believe the impact you have on people actually needing help is positive.

I sure understand “this job is all you have” concept. If I was to lose mine, let’s just say everything would go downhill fast. Like 90 degrees downward fast. You have a purpose, I do not since I find my employment shameful (although I used to think otherwise until I woke up to reality). So you are already well ahead of me on the human being road of value.