When almost nothing brings you joy anymore
Making music as well as exercise gave me the strength to cope with my depression at times. But for awhile now I’ve noticed that i lost interest in what once brought joy to me.
I no longer play guitar or piano like i used to. I don’t exercise like before and mostly spend my days on the couch on my phone, watching TV and playing video games.
A new and unusual interest
When i started losing my interest in my usual hobby’s that kept me from literally killing myself, i gained an interest in…mathematics! It’s quite strange, but for some reason whenever i do maths it’s like i’m in a different world and for a moment i forget about how miserable and suicidal i feel.
I’ve been exploring very basic math idea’s for myself and I’ve slowly been expanding it ever since. I even managed to come up with a cute little trick to calculate square numbers by exploiting a numerical pattern i spotted ”x² = (1-3-5-7-9)”.
So that when i have to calculate the area of a square (let’s assume the square is 85 by 85 cm) it takes significantly less time to calculate, getting to my answer of 7225 cm²
So yeah that’s my strange way of coping with depression at times haha. What hobby’s do you all pursue to cope with depression?