i cant fucking do this anymore. i cant do this anymore. i cant escape suicide. if its not me its someone else. i cant handle this much of it. but i cant do nothing. i dont know what to do. i know im destroying myself by trying to help other people but if i dont do it, i know that no one else will because no one knows about it. if anything happens i just need to detach my emotions. ive done it my entire life so i think itll be fine even though i know it wont be fine. im okay right? its okay im ijmi mi. i cant totott i dont know what to do i dont know what to do. im supposed to be the smart one. what happens when the smart one doesnt know what to do. i know im not smart. people just call me smart so that they move the responsibility onto me. helping other people is the only thing that makes me want to live but its also bringing me closer to death. i shouldnt have left my class. but oh well, whatre they gonna do? kill me? haha. sorry if if fifi if anyone. im sorry i didnt mean to let you die. that sounds bdadbadbad bad bad im i dontkn ow. its this doctor shes too smart i know. she knows what i know before i know it.she knows what you know too. or doeds she. maybe not. naybe you arent really dead and im just dreaming. im just dreaming. i want to wake up. and be somewherer else. or do i. i cant tell.
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Sometimes an outside perspective of clearer than what you see from the inside, don’t think you aren’t smart, if you weren’t capable they wouldn’t want you to do it.