I should really stop coming here as often as I am now. I have been coming her for the better part of 5 years. There are times when I won’t post for months at a time, and other times where it becomes a thing every other day or so. I kind of want to go back to the former, but for right now I feel like the latter. Anyways I was just thinking about the baggage that’s sitting at the corner of the room. I did a coin flip to see if I should just get rid of it, but it won out and for now it stays. I’ve had it since before Christmas. Every week it’s just been staring at me. I often question why I got it in the first place. I want to say out of the goodness in my heart and because I care, but I’d be a fucking liar. Nobody does anything without expecting something. I am no exception. I doubt they’d even care about it if I ever manage to give it to them. It’s just some dumb trinkets. Nothing special. I tell myself that it doesn’t matter but come July you could bet all the money in the world that I’ll just do the same thing over again. Then I’ll have two things of baggage. It’s rather ridiculous of me. Oh well whatever.
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Instead of seeking help from others, why dont u help the people here. Sometimes the advice u give others can help open your eyes to what u need to do.
That’s not a great idea. I understand the sentiment, but this place isn’t really for people to come together and help each other. It’s a hole people dump all their horrible thoughts down. It’s not meant as a place for people to get better. If you want to do that, go to therapy or something else productive.
Ill just keep my advice to myself. Thanks for helpin me acknowledge how ridiculous i sounded
I hope I didn’t sound too harsh. I understand you might want to help and make people feel better, but this isn’t the best place for it. Being here for as long as I have, I know. If you really want to get better, I implore you to stay away from here and try for professional help. This place is nothing but a hole of misery.
I don’t know, you may not be able to pull someone up from the abyss with a comment, though I’m sure there is the occasional times that you could touch someone deeply and change their course, but like ElleInWi said, the offering of helpful advice may very well be helping yourself as you are reflecting on the issues at hand. Sometimes our internal dialogue doesn’t allow us to work through our own problems but when trying to reach out to someone else it can clear up our path.