Light at the end of the tunnel for my depression is still non existent. I feel like I just should of gone through with my plan. the only thing that stopped me was keeping a promise to my wife who had told me 2 days before that she was leaving me, go figure. There is light at the end of the tunnel for a plan after I leave here. I will be going to a residential facility for about two weeks or as long as the insurance allows. After that I am planning to do EMBR therapy with my therapist here. I plan to do it with her because I trust her for something like this over a stranger.
I’ve tried to work with the therapists and Doctors here but success has been sporadic. The Dr is really there to handle medications and not do any significant counseling and the first Dr. I had was not good at either. I requested a new Dr. and he at least listens to me. The counselors range in effectiveness. Several are just MSW’s maybe with some counseling certification (one admitted his education is in dance) without sounding condescending It feels like I am smarter than a few of them (Did I mention that in a previous post? if so I am sorry for being repetitive). I do not make an issue of this in the groups as I do not want my issue to affect the other patients that the very well may be helping so I sit back and respond only when asked.
I am missing my wife already and dreading the day I see the divorce papers arrive. This I know I have posted but the thought puts me into a panic attack most times. I deal with that by trying to focus my thoughts elsewhere.
Well. I will be here until at least Monday and hopefully a bed opens up in this residential facility. As always I welcome your feedback, encouragement, rebuffs, comments, and kind words….