I’ve been feeling “better” the last little while, at least my mind has quieted with the suicidal thoughts, the cutting has dropped off immensely, and summer is peeking its head out; I love the sunshine.
it’s far from perfect, I do get frustrated still with minor things that I should just fix but, ironically, despite feeling “better” mentally I can’t bring myself to do anything, I think I actually do better when I’m in anguish in that regard. Shower? Not today. Laundry? Nope, big nope. Cook? Never.
On a positive note, I did my taxes! lol. April 15th was always the deadline, I couldn’t procrastinate anymore, it wasn’t until half way through I realized they have extended it to May but since I was already knee deep I just finished it.
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im glad to hear that you are feeling better. try to not stress about the other stuff so much, even on ok days keeping up with the little things can be difficult. try to not let them drag you back down. hugs
**hugs**
I’m not really stressing, more confused how it seems so backwards maybe? Idk. I expect to not have energy to do little things when I’m down, but usually a decent mood means I’m up to get something accomplished, or I feel like it should.
This is promising that the suicidal thoughts have reduced, well done,I hope it continues that way for you, the sunshine might be a leading factor in this, I’ve often heard talk of sunny weather diminishing suicidal thoughts.thedevilisclose is correct about not stressing over the other stuff, those tasks can be dealt with when ur feeling more energetic.
Yes, last summer was not so nice to me, but the warmth of the sun is always nice. I’m hoping this feeling holds on for a while.
yay for completing taxes!!
Small party. lol
Thats kinda where Im at. Im numb and shut down and can’t even get in the shower. I just go outside at times and have a cigarette but at least its sunny. Im trying to get up the strength to go on a road trip but I have yet to find it.
I hope you do find the time and energy for a road trip, I think it’s deserved.