I’ve hurt lots of people, albeit unintentionally. At school. During activities. On the internet. I didn’t think I was doing anything bad. I didn’t realize. I never do. It’s so difficult for me to understand how others feel and are affected by things, at least not until it’s too late. Even when I’m told that something that I said or did was wrong, I often either can’t understand why it was unacceptable or why it was so to such a great extent. I’ve been called a bully, and I didn’t understand why. I was angry and upset at the label. Even though I went out of my way to say some of these things. I’ve also been called rude. Everyone comments on how much of a goddamned social failure I am, and even my fucking parents are embarrassed. People also seem to be profoundly hurt by things that I say. Some of these people I can never apologize to, as I haven’t seen them in years. And they probably still hold what I said and did to them against me. I feel horrible.