I find it really frustrating that my best has never been good enough. For the most part I have always been fighting against depression, or whatever it is that is wrong with me. I’ve tried so hard. I just can’t seem to beat it.
I’m going to be trying shock therapy soon, and this will be the last thing I try. After that there is nothing left but another suicide attempt for me. At least I don’t have to write a note, because no one would ever read it.
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Don’t you do that shock treatment stuff. Stop taking the happy pills. Get out of the hospital or doctors. You gotta try a new city or new job or make a new friend. Try switching up your life. Don’t mess yourself up just to tolerate what you’re going through. I had many suicide attempts others more serious than other and I always eventually felt thankful that they didn’t work. Hope you find what you’re looking for.
I appreciate your concern. I’ve been fighting this for 25 years or so. I’ve moved cities and countries and tried various jobs. I have had one friend in my life and 0 friends in the past 20 years. I’ve been in therapy for 15 years with various methods and practitioners. I’ve tried dozens of medications and non-medications and self-medications. I’ve really done my best and everything I can think of. I don’t have the energy to do much else.
Never give up
Keep searching for what you’re looking for