I wouldn’t mind this…
Knowing that my ex is going after married women is a great birthday present (sarcasm).
Someone told me. I’m better off not knowing about it. I’m not really surprised but idk… I think going after married people is sleazy (unless they somehow all agreed to polyamory).
It would be easy to think that I’ve dodged a bullet. Women going after married men are just as bad.
But yeah. Happy death day more like it. I plead for this suffering to end (not only because of my ex).
If you are somehow a regular reader of my posts (I’m sorry if anyone reads them) then you’d know that I’d want to die for numerous reasons. I’ve wanted to die years before I met my ex.
🙁
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My birthday is in 3 months. If my treatment doesn’t work that’s my planned date, but plans can change. I think there is something symbolic about it, but leave it to humans to make meaning of the meaningless.
I hope you at least get a moment of joy.
The birth date always felt quite arbitrary, considering that many different points of development can be represented by those that emerge from the womb. It isn’t a true beginning, any more than conception, which occur under chemical constraints isolated to the relationship history of that particular couple.
Just so, I don’t think it matters what day you die on. You’ll be dead, so in practice there is no benefit to get after, and before then? You’d be just as well to take another form of procrastination to put off death, they all have the same effect, it keeps us alive longer out of a hope that we’ll snuff it out of external circumstances.
For me death will be welcome when it comes, but I can’t see any of what I do significantly shortening the intervening period
You only get one death date so you might as well celebrate your own life, nobody else’s, until then because death can happen even when we are not totally planning it. Treat yourself to a splendid life and let past regrets that really come between you and living fall to the wayside.