im always seemingly invisible… and muted… ever since i was a young kid, i would speak – and people would ignore it. They would hear it – and just talk about something else – as if I had said nothing at all.
Over the years I have become quieter and quieter. Now I have met someone that I am madly in love with. And the only issue there is that he does the same to me. He doesn’t listen to me. He speaks over me. And it hurts so bad because it brings back all the past. And it makes me close up.
I just didn’t need this one more thing, which is such an important hurting thing to me, to prove that I am not interesting or cool or whatever enough to be heard. I can’t expect any different than being ignored anymore, I don’t want to speak anymore at all.
I feel like this sounds so small but its immensely huge to me :'(
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I spend so much time writing in journals things I wish I could tell him, but he doenst care. (I’ve tried)
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I feel the same. I also write letters to ones I’ve loved over the years and since I’m so quiet often get talked over. I often ask others so many questions about their lives. Listen to and try to understand every detail. But they never seem interested to ask me any questions back. It feels one sided.
With that boy you like, I’m sure he isnt talking over you intentionally. He knows you’re quiet, and subconsciously talks lots to make up the difference. Because he thinks you wont. He doesnt realize he’s shutting you down as well. The only way to fix this is for him to know that he’s doing this. But that isnt something we’re usually okay with doing
I agree with Darkwillow that he may be so excited to share his life with you that he forgets to listen to you share yours. Its usually not intentional. My ex on the other hand wouldn’t listen to a word I said and would yell over me but thats probably different in your case.