i’ve been having a lot of sleepless nights lately. thoughts just keep racing through my mind. i really don’t understand any of this. i’ve been entertaining my darkest thoughts lately. i’ve really gotten tired. i deleted my social media. i’m just so sick of it. it’s been raining a lot lately. i like the rain. sometimes i go out and just lie on the ground and stare at the sky and just let the rain drops hit me. i’ve thought of cutting off two fingers on my left hand. i feel so ill. i mean what the fuck is going on with me. it’s like i can’t go a day without thinking about ways i could self harm. i’m being forced to take several pills everyday. it’s really annoying. i’m feeling very irritated and exhausted. really fucking pathetic. i’m really sorry i’m like this. i really can’t help it. i’m so horrible.
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INSOMNIA
The rain trys to wipe away your tear, reminding you the worst thing about it is the fear. After all this thinking about being somewhere, but not here, remember someone is still near. As youre feeling you can’t steer, nature is telling you it holds you dear. As you watch the rain appear and disappear, the sun comes out too lend you its ear. We are children of the universe with a right to be here, ergo we have the right to feel fear. We have been given emotions warm and cold or dirty and clear, it’s not the man’s fault to listen and hear. As we feel the pressure clinging onto us we fear, every sadness ends one day like a year. The sheer fear is here and near, but youre not alone with a tear next to your ear, remember even after this year you’re still here.
I hope you liked this poem I wrote for your well being, I dont if it makes sense for what you’re feeling, but i hope nor youre seeing that you’re not alone with what you’re experiencing. My regards and a greeting, may your heart always be beating.
i am seeing this very late but i truly will treasure this. thank you so much. i hope you are well and i wish you the best.