I need to keep going. I need to have faith in myself. I can change and I will. There is nothing I can’t do and definitely nothing that can stop me. This life is worth living for the simple fact that I want to see myself improve. I will die some day by old age anyways, so why not stick around and experience the bad with the good? Love my girlfriend, prove people wrong, make something out of myself. Sometimes, I think that I’m just too sensitive and overreacting. Maybe I am, but it’s not my fault I am like this. I need to adapt to the way I am. I have a question for you. My mindset is that the pain and suffering is an advantage over other people. Others don’t know what I’ve been through. I alone carried this weight my whole life without help from anybody. If I managed to do that, survive all this time, I am definitely superior in some way to people who just have it easy. They don’t know what struggling is. My question is, do you see your burdens the same way?
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Nope, I was married to a BPD/Bipolar woman for 25 years and she is still making my life miserable. I would rather be dead than to live another day.
That’s a very positive way to look at things. And you bring up a good point about the inevitability of death anyway. I like your positive energy.
From the way I see it, you can relate on somethings others will never understand. How we have to really push ourselves to do what we need to do unlike other people. I have MDD and it’s been around awhile for me. Meds I take don’t do awhile lot for me, but I really need to find what motivates to continue in life. You should be very grateful for what you have: Girlfriend. I don’t get that and I suffer at times. I want something real and bond with someone and make a life out of it. I take this road to dawn all the time. I want to reach the light, but my dark side has made my journey a living hell. I’m in the middle of this. I know there’s a good life out there but I also know that dangers are going to be there. Things that might break me down. When something good comes, I do my best to look at the brighter of things. There will be bad times, but u have a gf that can help and support you. I wish I had something that. Otherwise I would he still feeling this pain all the time that never wants to get out.
Wish i could help but i honestly cant decipher what youre tryin to say