From zero to a hundred
My mood changes quickly…one moment i can feel sort of okay and the next it’s overwhelming depression and hopelessness. My mood has been like this for quite a few years now, but a recent development in my mood is my fuse becoming shorter and shorter over the past few months.
Now i can feel my self getting angry and annoyed very quickly over minor everyday inconveniences. Now to add on top of that…imagine feeling as angry as i do and then a stranger in public feels the need to taunt you just for being you.
Imagine feeling such fury pass through your body…a burning sensation in your chest…blood pressure rising accompanied by what feels like electricity coursing through your head as if you’re about to literally short circuit any moment…that’s what i felt like today when a stranger decided to taunt me.
When i confronted the person face-to-face i had to exercise restraint, allot of restraint…so i would not become the worst version of myself in that moment and do something i’d regret. It’s honestly exhausting being this angry …perhaps i may have to try anger management treatment for my next psychologist.
”Going from zero to a hundred is easy, it’s the slowing back down that is the hard part” –
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That’s pretty common in people with bipolar or BPD. Either way, talking to someone about it is a good idea. Hope you find the peace of mind you’re looking for. Good luck