Maybe taking just a bit of pressure off yourself might help, might not…who says you HAVE to be excited? Friends, acquaintances, social media, media in general? I won’t be so crass as to tell you that “it’s just a number”, it’s obviously a big deal to you and you’re not looking forward to it. That’s ok. Don’t be excited, and try to cut yourself a little slack about your lack of enthusiasm. It’s ok.
It could be because some people put quite a lot of stock in youth. I never got around to finding a use for my youth, and I’m now 33. Not yet old, but no longer feeling particularly young.
The march of time is discouraging, I can endorse that. It flows on, regardless of our preference to that effect. I have decided to sleep for the majority of the remainder of my life. If/when things get better or worse, I’ll deal with that at the time.
It’s about what you want to be, which can be daunting, but is very much customizable to your ambition. Be cautious with ambition, it is relatively unwelcome in the adult world. Far better to be indifferent, indifference is the best outlook. So, maybe it will be awful, maybe not so awful. There’s no way to know but to wake up on the marrow and learn first hand.
Adulthood is significantly like narcotics; best slowly adjusted to, and done without entirely if given the option. Be whomever pleases you, because you are the only person you can please consistently
I don’t have anything meaningful to say, apart from that fact that I relate. I’m scared of turning 18 for so many reasons, even though I still have some time. Everyone expects me to want to turn 18 so I can finally leave my abusive parents, but… I’m not. I’m scared, I’m sad, I’m mourning the childhood I could’ve had.
I apologise for my irrelevant rant, and I wish you luck. *hugs*
If im recalling your pervious posts correctly (which i honestly might not be and if im not, sorry) but i think you know why. If i recall you had said that you felt you missed out on your childhood. And now youre feeling like its over.
Hugs
I know its going to sound crazy but to a degree it doesnt have to be. I just turned 22 and ill still swing on the swingset and eat poptarts and lucky charms for breakfast.
Why not try to do one childish thing as a birthday present to yourself?
Im turning 59 in a few weeks and talk about depressing so it could be worse although I understand why you are feeling the way you are because of the childhood that was taken from you. My childhood really wasn’t the best either tbh. My 18th year was a very hard one for me because my HS Sweetheart left me and cheated on me. It was my first real broken heart and it devastated me. I stayed drunk and started shooting up cocaine and my life became a mess. I lost my drivers license and still drove until I was faced with 6 months in jail for 3 DWS tickets. I moved to California then and started over. Life didn’t get any easier really but somehow I got it together and had some happy times and more broken heart times. I always ended up with the Bipolars/BPD types so that made life exciting and miserable at the same time. Im still there today lol.
24 years old myself. It’s rough when you think too much about it. But I agree with what thedevilisclose said. Dont let age change or affect you, do whatever you want, childish or weird or whatever.
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Maybe taking just a bit of pressure off yourself might help, might not…who says you HAVE to be excited? Friends, acquaintances, social media, media in general? I won’t be so crass as to tell you that “it’s just a number”, it’s obviously a big deal to you and you’re not looking forward to it. That’s ok. Don’t be excited, and try to cut yourself a little slack about your lack of enthusiasm. It’s ok.
It could be because some people put quite a lot of stock in youth. I never got around to finding a use for my youth, and I’m now 33. Not yet old, but no longer feeling particularly young.
The march of time is discouraging, I can endorse that. It flows on, regardless of our preference to that effect. I have decided to sleep for the majority of the remainder of my life. If/when things get better or worse, I’ll deal with that at the time.
It’s about what you want to be, which can be daunting, but is very much customizable to your ambition. Be cautious with ambition, it is relatively unwelcome in the adult world. Far better to be indifferent, indifference is the best outlook. So, maybe it will be awful, maybe not so awful. There’s no way to know but to wake up on the marrow and learn first hand.
Adulthood is significantly like narcotics; best slowly adjusted to, and done without entirely if given the option. Be whomever pleases you, because you are the only person you can please consistently
I hate getting older too. I turned 16 today and it was awful.
I don’t have anything meaningful to say, apart from that fact that I relate. I’m scared of turning 18 for so many reasons, even though I still have some time. Everyone expects me to want to turn 18 so I can finally leave my abusive parents, but… I’m not. I’m scared, I’m sad, I’m mourning the childhood I could’ve had.
I apologise for my irrelevant rant, and I wish you luck. *hugs*
If im recalling your pervious posts correctly (which i honestly might not be and if im not, sorry) but i think you know why. If i recall you had said that you felt you missed out on your childhood. And now youre feeling like its over.
Hugs
I know its going to sound crazy but to a degree it doesnt have to be. I just turned 22 and ill still swing on the swingset and eat poptarts and lucky charms for breakfast.
Why not try to do one childish thing as a birthday present to yourself?
Im turning 59 in a few weeks and talk about depressing so it could be worse although I understand why you are feeling the way you are because of the childhood that was taken from you. My childhood really wasn’t the best either tbh. My 18th year was a very hard one for me because my HS Sweetheart left me and cheated on me. It was my first real broken heart and it devastated me. I stayed drunk and started shooting up cocaine and my life became a mess. I lost my drivers license and still drove until I was faced with 6 months in jail for 3 DWS tickets. I moved to California then and started over. Life didn’t get any easier really but somehow I got it together and had some happy times and more broken heart times. I always ended up with the Bipolars/BPD types so that made life exciting and miserable at the same time. Im still there today lol.
24 years old myself. It’s rough when you think too much about it. But I agree with what thedevilisclose said. Dont let age change or affect you, do whatever you want, childish or weird or whatever.