My teenage daughter is driving me nuts. Its bad enough i have a tempermental 10yr old autistic son and 1 hyped up 7yrold. But i foolishly assumed my daughter would be the easiest 1 because of how independent she is. Nope, sadly mistaken. Shes in a confused state where she wants to be a guy but says shes a non binary lesbian but then gets offended when people call her my son cuz she looks like a boy. And then she doesnt care about her looks or how much she smells. I gotta demand and yell at her to take a shower n brush her teeth everyday. She complains she has no clothes but she has alot of clothes only thing is she binge eats any time i leave the house and she cant fit her clothes. But she also wont go clothes shopping with me cuz she said it makes her anxious n yet she doesnt want me to pick out her clothes so its like how tf are we gonna do this? Shes unnecessarily complicated. She throws a fit and claims im bullying her when i tell her to put her dirty clothes in the closet hamper. Like seriously if youre throwing a fit about havin to walk across the room then idk what youre gonna do as an adult. Im just beyond overwhelmed with all of my children cuz they all have diff and intense issues that require law enforcement, specialists and therapist help and i also gotta take care of my schizoaffective. Its like the crazy people managing the psych hospital in our house. Seriously depressing when we go out in society and no1 realizes the kind of hell we live in at home. And how i havent taken a vacation by myself in 14yrs and i wont get to til my youngest is 18. I just dont want to die before i get the chance to taste that kinda freedom. The freedom of my kids bein adults and no longer my responsibility and how i can leave the state and spend a weekend in new orleans if i want to and not have to worry about any1 but myself.
Am i an asshole for fantasizing about being alone?