currently i wish to die, not because I want to actively die, i just want relief. i have had 5 attempts before in the last year and a half and i still want to do it. but i know if i do it people might miss me, something that i don’t believe is true, but my friends say it’s true, but can i really call them my friends. i have a lot of trust issues so i can never tell.
this is my first post so i don’t really know what i’m doing. i just hope anyone i know finds me on here, not that they would, but there’s a chance.
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i understand this. i have trust issues as well and dont believe my friends all the time. even when i do believe im stuck shrugging my shoulders because “thats nice but doesnt make the problems go away”
i mostly meant to say i understand the missing thing. they say they miss me but how? i have to be the biggest pain in the ass with my disorders, how can i not be a burden, how can they not want me gone.
hugs if its ok, basically i just want to say i understand 🙂