I’ve made no progress over the years I’ve been on here. The link between pain and what’s the right thing to do has driven me mad. Basically working causes me terrible terrible pain but not working forces other people to do it for me like slaves and it’s just awful. It’s one of those catch 22s. There is no way out. And it’s not logically possible there ever will be. It feels like I’m in some hostage situation but the bad guy is also me.
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“I’m in some hostage situation but the bad guy is also me.” what a blunt way to put it ! Also described my own situation to me.
I quit work this week and got no plan for applying elsewhere. Only no one except the people at my company know this yet, so family and friends won’t be forced to do anything for me, yet. But my savings and sanity will run out soon.
Feels like I’m out at sea alone now. So either it’s shore or shipwreck up ahead.
I pray you find your way out- other than the exit door.
If you own a property in the West you could rent out the property and then go to live in a really cheap country like Thailand using the rent as an income and essentially retire but very comfortably.