i want to live in my head

i want to live in my head, it’s just so. so. so. comfortable there. it’s like a treehouse with sunshine through the leaves and birds singing and a stream and frogs and flying squirrels and everything is so nice. it’s like the childhood i’d always dreamed of when i was a kid. i want to stay there forever. i’m so tired. i’m so in pain all the time. my body always hurts and there’s so many decisions to make and things to do and i have to keep my room clean and i feel like puking. My head has so much that doesn’t exist and i wish i could live in it. everything in the real world is so disgusting and gross and i hate the feeling of being in my body. my head has so many colours and everything is so vivid, it feels like a movie. and in my head i have those friends and people i know and are cool, like in gravity falls and adventure time. i want to live in my treehouse. i think treehouse by alex g is how it is. like what i remember of bridge to tarabithia. like the animated video by siames called summer nights. i never had that. but ive dreamt of it countless times. at school id daydream all the time. i’d wish to live like that. but i dont’ and i ddont think i ever will. i wish i could live in my head/