My “doc” posted notes in an email today telling me that I am now diabetic. This is a death sentence for those that don’t know much about it. She seemed happy about the diagnosis, almost giddy, and decided to throw buckets of pills at me. I told her “no, I am not interested”. No pills or any other crap. I am not going to spend the rest of my short and painful life taking pills and eating oatmeal and salads (gag). This diagnosis is fine with me. I am so done with this life. I just want it to be over and I am too much of a chickenshit to do the deed more aggressively. I am warming up to the reality of the situation and I am kind of happy about it. I just need to start writing down all of my “stuff” and getting my affairs in order.
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Did she prescribe insulin? Or does your doctor want you to take a pill and monitor your sugar?
I hate change too, but it’ll make you feel better! You’re worth it!
It’ll be okay <3
It feels big right now but you’ll feel like it’s normal over time.
If I could be there next to you, I’d cheer you on and eat healthier with you
I don’t think you get the point. Some of us wait for a terminal thing all our lives. It’s not that she doesn’t want to change, she accepted it. That idea gives her comfort.
I don’t think you understand that she was saying “fine, take everything I have” in a sarcastic, irritated way.
In my opinion, she’s irritated about the diagnosis because it’s just another brick on the camel’s back.
Don’t start a fight with me please, move along.
Quick of you to assume that I want to fight. Calm down.
Not angry. Just not feeling it with the arrogant “I’m right” thing you’re doing…
At least, that’s what I did for a living a couple years ago. It’s scary at first, I know. <3