not that it feels like it has any part being here, beside people talking about chronic pain, poverty etc. That’s often the problem, my issues seem silly compared to the problems of others. I guess I’m trying to make peace with being silly…
So the grad program I’m going into did a webinar this evening, an hour of talking about the program and what it’s there for. I get why, well informed is better for them. At the same time, it feels like a sales pitch. I don’t know if I buy it, the whole “we’ll put you into a fulfilling career”…. yeah, heard it before, not taking it on face value now.
I guess I have to define myself, since they are doing such a shoddy job. I’m doing this for the interesting problems. That is something of value, I’m still nervous about potential debt, which has not been fully dealt with even though I’ve been at it for six months. The “promise”…. IDK, I’m getting some red flags. “we’re like family”…. yeah, I worked with some other people’s families, it can be abusive. Most of my employers have been abusive.
Supposedly there’s a shortage of people in this field…. which you’d think would push pay upwards, but looking at the pay data that’s not what I see happening here. Yes, it pays well. It doesn’t pay “critical shortage” well. At least not based on the numbers the program gave me.
I feel like an oddball too, some of the other people are talking about work/family/school, and I’m like let’s just see what school has going on. Maybe six months to a year in we can talk about outside work. I’d like to get healthy enough to have a family….. there’s no certain path to that.
So I repeat my central question; not whether I’m being deceived because simply by not telling me everything that’s true. Whether I’m being sold a bill of goods. Whether this university wants to take advantage of my ambition and drive, and if they can afford to pay for it. It’s going to cost a lot. Today I was talking with my wife about my hair, which currently hangs past my shoulders. I said I’d have to get a two year assured contract for at least $80k to cut my hair. That’s a pretty low hanging adjustment for a job, and I wonder what else might be asked of me.
Worse, if this is a bill of goods, I need to figure out a plan B, and I don’t have any prospects for that right now.