Everywhere I run my hands across, I find little bumps and blemishes. A lot of it’s just acne. On my back, my arms, my legs, my stomach, it’s everywhere. I have a lot on my mind. I want to learn how to speak it to people. My mom would be a good start. I have feelings of being worthless and out of place, but I can’t communicate it. It is hard. I don’t know. My anti depressants were increased. I hope they work. I flipped a coin today asking if I should kill myself. It landed on tails. It did that again.
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Hope you chose heads 🙂
I forgot to mention that heads was yes I should kill myself and tails was no I shouldn’t. Fun fact, tomorrow is my 7 year anniversary using this site and I mentioned in my first post that I flipped a coin asking the same question and it landed on tails.
That’s really interesting… do you believe in signs? Or do you think it’s just a weird coincidence that it keeps coming up tails? either way I’m glad it did 🙂
It’s complicated. I know for a fact that the coin flip is meaningless. But it’s always given me a strange comfort. The act of asking a coin a question and flipping for an answer. It’s the same thing with other small coincidences. A small part of me thinks it’s God talking to me, whatever that is. I think that side is just the part of me that is so desperate for some other worldly force to tell me what to do. IDK.