I’m lonely. I am a lonely person. I look at myself in the mirror everyday…getting ready for work, getting ready to go out. Not with friends, but with people who can make me feel like I’m not alone. But they know I am. I am alone. Shit. I have no one. But, I have family and I have a partner. But what does that mean when you have no one around to call a friend. I lost all my friends. I am hanging on to my family’s friends. They aren’t my friends. They know of me and me. But, I don’t even think they know anything more than what I do for a living.
It’s sad. I feel alone. My partner feels that I feel alone, even if I don’t talk about it. It’s a constant feeling that I don’t think I can fight.
I really like this platform. I have made friends I’ve never met. Sympathized with people I’ve never seen. It’s easy to liken and love without preconceived judgment.
In the real world, people like and love for their best interest. I feel sad that I’ve liked and loved people who never show up for me the way I do. Maybe they just don’t understand how I show my love. That’s okay… It’s just a lot to not take.
I don’t know who is still on here that I once shared a ] conversation or emotion with but, I hope everyone here will make it through. That’s all I’m trying to do. What ever you all are tying to achieve, I hope you do…cause sometimes, people are brought into this life to feel pain. You’re not the only one. I feel pain all the time too. It’s okay. I hope it will go away someday.
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I feel the only advice I could give you is to join social groups and meet people that way. You seem more extroverted, so that’s one thing u could keep in mind. I could never understand someone in pain with family and a significant other. Some people don’t even have that. He’ll I could say having a partner would solve all my depression and pain. Then again, having ur happiness in a person could be fatal in the end. Some of us just feel pain mostly in our lives and it can stick. Some want out and others just suffer day by day. Even to have more issues piling up. I know I don’t need a group of people to be happy. If anything, I’d wish to have a partner to appreciate and love me. If I had that, things would be good just like old times. Though you have both and still feel pain. Everyone is different after all. Meet up groups online like “meet up” and others would be your best bet to find a new crowd and new friends. Sometimes the friends we once had weren’t meant to be. Best to start fresh and new with new people. I hope you find that and your pain goes away.
I feel like you reach a certain age and its almost impossible to make new genuine friends. Then again, I realized I didn’t have any to begin with. But you’re right, a lot of people don’t even get to experience that. I could understand why it’s a difficult concept to grasp. I feel like it feels a lot like you’re living a façade. Smiles around them and tears in your solitude. It’s interesting that I come off as an extrovert. Sometimes I wish I was one… I hope one day you can find that partner that you desire. But above all, I hope you know that you’re valued, even by people you’ve never met in real life. Thank you for this, it means a lot. I hope your pain in whatever shape or form goes away too.