FTW Blah blah blah

And here we go again… I come here when im at the lowest of the low. When i REALLY want to take action. I read other posts and I sometimes leave one myself. It seems pretty pointless. But then again so does everything right now. Why do i bother. I must want to have hope or I dont think I would bother. It would be easier for me to go. But not easier for my family. UGH There seems to be no help for my feelings or thoughts. I have tried everything and so many different meds. They dont help. I have done counseling blah blah blah They all seem to be stereotypical bullshit responses. FTW