Uncontrollable Rage

This is a rant.

It all makes me angry.
Can’t afford anything, stuck in a job I despise for 3 years now. It’s one of those jobs where the job isn’t difficult per say, but the work environment and the management are atrocious, complete garbage. So many people who’d been there for longer than I have up and left because they were fed up with it too, and that’s my cue to leave. Taking a sick day because I’m fed up with the place.

Yet all I see are jobs that pay less than this one, or jobs that pay more that I lack qualifications for, or jobs I can’t even do. I’m tired of being fed all these sales jobs that are commission based too, like I’m not a sales types I’m more repair tech type, but a beginner. The market is hell for me right now which makes this even more difficult.

Making more money would help me pay what I need to pay and get my debts in order. I’m drowning in debts too. At this point, it’s work this job I despise or have no money.

None of this helps me mentally either, I just stay perpetually angry because of a lot of things, this being the biggest thing.

I’m aware of how good I have some things, but man it’s irritating when you just want to be able to support yourself without working yourself to death and it’s starting to look like I’m going to just have to find any way to make money to pay bills and eventually start to cut into my debts.

I’m always angry to the point where I don’t even bother with most things because I’m too broke to do much else.