3 years I worked this job. 3 fucking years.
This is my 3rd queue with them.
Sad thing is, the queue itself is a lot better, it’s just that the damn company is still the same after all this time.
I’d put up with some serious shit at that job for the sake of a paycheck.
Now though, now I can’t do that anymore.
I haven’t been there in a long while (think the place finally broke me after 3 years of their shit) and it helps A LOT, but unfortunately, I haven’t found a job to replace it yet. So I’ll go back tomorrow, and do my best to just keep up with the schedule, for now.
I will find something very soon though, no matter what it takes at this point.
It’s weird, I feel like I’m just barely drifting through my own life and I’m so fed up with it. There’s a lot that I need to do and it all comes down to making a proper income to finally deal with my bills and losing weight proper.
It’s odd. Last night, almost to tears, I’d looked up something about mental health. Maybe it helped a little, because then I actually prayed. It’s been a very very long time since I’d done a heartfelt prayer.
I know some of you are agnostic or of a different religion, and I’m not trying to be preachy, but I’m just trying to say that I will use this to try to improve my current situation.
All I know is I cannot still be in this same situation in my 30’s, let’s put it that way. There’s a lot of shit I’m tired of, and I want to make something of myself at this point.
At least I can rant here. It helps because it’s hard to say these things out loud. You guys do tend to help and I appreciate it.
Trey, the mindless gamer
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aw, i hope u find a good paying job with better conditions. sorry life sucks for u at the moment. i’m sure you’ll find something. the holidays are coming, maybe there’s some job openings coming up?
I guess. I’m just going to try my best, despite the shittier job market.
Wish you the best…by nature I tend to be a creature of habit. If I’m in a job I’m the type to stay there for years, even if I hate it.
I had an interesting experience though. There was a lovely girl, let’s call her Anne who joined my company (this was about 10 years ago) and said she was “just passing through and will be out in about 4-6 months.”
Once she heard about my credentials, she was surprised and pushed me to strive for better work. I was planning to get promoted and the next level was much better than where I was.
True to her word, she had left, for a better position (in another company) in about 6 months. It was almost like a friend in slow motion walking into and out of my life and telling me, go do something better.
Anyways, I was already getting very fed up of the place…after 4 yrs I experienced a serious health issue and used that as a reason to leave the place. Truthfully my office also felt like a prison, every day was the same…I felt like I was going crazy.
Also because I’m kind of smart, my managers dumped more work and responsibility on me but didn’t raise my pay so it kind of pissed me off, but I figured I might be next in line for a middle-manager position.
Anyways long story short, don’t feel the 4 walls you stare at every day (where you live) are forever. With some effort you can change your life. Don’t feel the job you’re doing is inescapable.
Nothing in this life comes easily (unless you’re rich) and anything worth having takes effort.
Actually, since I left that crap company, I found a much better one and the staff was 10 times better…even though everyone puts on a pleasant face at most jobs, at the new place some of them do try to be a real friend to you.
For me this is also a stepping stone…I have far bigger plans for myself, but I’m dealing with other life issues right now that are getting in the way…so I think I’m going to need to make another major change.
Where I live now is creating major and unnecessary problems for me (even though it’s better than my last apt), so I decided to either rent a house or condo where I’d have more peace/quiet and less needless drama.
It’ll max out my income but I hope to jump to a higher paying position after that.
The prices we’re paying in rent are totally insane but my city is becoming like New York and I bet it’ll probably keep getting worse so I have to look into owning hopefully in the next few years…to escape the rental rat race.
Like you I also need to get back in shape…today it’s just unacceptable socially to be overweight…assuming you want an attractive partner.
Also don’t worry about religion. If it brings you peace/comfort, and makes you feel better, go for it. While I am an Atheist (ex-Christian)…I’m not one to try to push people out of their beliefs if it is essential to their lives.
I will engage with those who have doubts about their beliefs and I’ll also challenge those who feel religion offers better answers than science/secularism and humanism…but I don’t go out of my way to rain on anyone’s parade. 🙂
In a nutshell for you, take my example, you can definitely improve your life, but think long term, in months and years. Apply around, fix up your resume…look into what jobs really interest you, that way you’ll be happier working there. Take care.