What do I even do?

well, the workers, ordinary people tend to drive change. Money and those flush with it tend to like stability, avoid change at all cost. That’s the answer to most of your questions of why it doesn’t happen; The rich and powerful are using all the tools at their disposal to prevent change. Every single thing you listed, part of holding together the old system.

but just because it hasn’t happened yet doesn’t mean it won’t or isn’t happening. I know that because news gets back to me, even stuck in a relatively conservative state. There haven’t been this many large strikes in my lifetime, and this is following several years of record protest. That’s what a pent up demand for change looks like.

I’ve been trying not to get political, for my health….. clearly I’m not always succeeding. The rich, the powerful, they want people believing the narrative that they make the rules, that an individual is powerless. They’re wrong and they know it, why else would they pay so much to PR firms to try and put down strikes and protests? Okay, it isn’t good for business, but if business was good for anyone but those that own them…… it just seems like they’d have an easier time convincing us.

It’s a rotten system. I happen to like the Chinese Youth attitude right now; let it rot. Sometimes it’s called lying flat, all to say not feeding into the establishment narrative, the establishment agenda.

Okay, trying to get back to more personal, less political. Agree or not with my politics, you’re likely what most would consider a malcontent. I am too, but have the unique position of starting out as one. You said you were ignorant as a child, to how cruel the system is. I wasn’t. I didn’t know the extent, but I knew that at the same time I was being called highly capable, for whatever reason there wasn’t room for me in it. For 20 years I tried to make it work, and I’ve given up.

Again, starting out as a malcontent, I’ve looked at the world differently. I’ve studied others like me, turns out there are a lot. Addicts in particular tend to impress me, apart from children they are the most creative humans on the planet. Not that addiction is good, just that addicts adapt better than most of us. Must be the incentive.

So running into a lot of addicts, I found out how truly little it takes to get by. Instead of discarding them, I wanted to know why almost no force out there managed to dissuade them from going against the grain. Family is the exception, and health problems, if not for those there’d be no progress.

anyway, not getting into the addiction aspect, rather the fact that I’ve seen people with that attribute successfully drop out. They find a way to eat, and get shelter, and that’s really the whole bill. Some of them talk their way into staying on a family property, there are more of those out there than I thought, starting out. They get an RV or shed and stick it on the edge of the family property, and get food stamps or other food assistance and all their problems are solved.

but one doesn’t need a substance issue to do that. Maybe the family property thing is out of the reach of many, including me, but the property itself isn’t that hard. I saw multiple homeless addicts manage to scrape together to buy an acre of land somewhere, then like I said, shed or RV, sometimes even a house. When you drop out of the debt economy, suddenly gathering resources is a lot easier.

I also looked a lot at what people did during the great depression, which was the last time a generation was this fed up with the economy. Homeless people banded together, formed communities, and scraped together enough to get by. When the economy abandoned them, they abandoned the economy. FDR didn’t create those programs out of generousity, it was the only way to get people working again.

but I’m really fed up. I got so tired and frustrated with bad job after bad job that I realized I’d rather be homeless than keep barely getting by trying to get a decent living out of companies committed to robbing me blind. I’m on the path to disability, because I’m so depressed and used up at this point I can’t even apply to jobs.

So I don’t know what this old deralict, or would be deralict if people didn’t like me so much, has to offer someone who isn’t ready to give up. I fought like hell for that cause for as long as I could, and I know people who succeed at it. but I can’t identify with it, I dare not even hope that such a thing is available to me. I have more in common with the other supposedly useless people than I do with those who the system works for.