Apparently with the job market the way it is I can’t get the start I need to get to move forward. Entry Level Helpdesk or Support jobs are just not there right now. Did some courses here and there but need more experience, and the only way to get experience is to get a job, but the only way to get the job is to have the experience. Commence loop.
Don’t have enough money to get the certs I want or a degree because current job doesn’t pay enough. Sick of the current job to the point where I may just quit without a job lined up, and moving forward, it’s going to be down to more experience, which I need.
Endless catch 22.
We are all struggling. I don’t know how I’m doing this anymore. I’ve been slowly slipping for a while now.
Soon, it will be just me. No clue how I’ll afford anything.
Just treading water at this point it seems.
Going back home will do nothing but worsen things. Less opportunities, costs for things will be even more. Would probably be back with parents…. again.
Really not trying to go down that route.
Barely can even get out of bed. Taking care of the bare minimum at this point.
I don’t even care about games like that at this point. I think I just play them to distract myself a bit.
I’m just tired.
Part of me wants to just switch with someone who hasn’t had the opportunities I have, the friends and family I have, and have that person take the reins and make something better of my own life than my current shit show.
I’ve fucked my life so badly and people will say, oh you haven’t even started your life yet.
It’s not going to be enough, not for them, nor for me.
Why am I like this? Don’t even know if I can live alone honestly. Never done it before.
There’s so much I need to do to get on track, and yet I can’t get anywhere. It’s driving me mad.
I really don’t know anymore.