my boyfriend and i have broken up , for good this time.
we’ve been together for a long time.
I made him my everything , my life , i trusted him and opened my heart to him .. gave him my heart.
He was the only one to have the key to my heart.
But the other day i had to make the hard decision of leaving him..
i was always second best , i wasn’t his main priority , though i always had time to make him mine.
He had crushes on girls , threw them ontop of my importance in his life..
it became to much , and i tried to ttell him how i felt and he though ignoring me would be cool.
Then the girl he had a crush on messages me telling me to leave him blah blah .. that he’s giving up and moving on , as he’s ignoring me but never ended anything?
It was the hardest thing i’ve ever done.
Part of me feels like he will come back , he will miss me he wont be able to be away from me from all of the memories we shared and times spent together , or how we were so close.. and all of the stupid fights made us a stronger couple. or even how no one else will put up with his **** like i did. i always was there.
then part of me feels like he’s really gone..
i just want to fade away , i broke up with him i guess to see where we stood.. because if you love someone set them free… if they come back they’re truly yours , if not they were never yours to begin with right?
i’d like to believe that..
but now i’m trying to be strong , and it’s not easy ..
faking a smile .. then at night drowning in my tears.
i miss it all ..i really do , and i just want to give in and talk to him and tell him i need him
but that’s all i have ever done…
i’ve always fought for him , it’s time for him to fight for me right?
i’m depressed.
i’ve tried overdosing.
i’ve tried everything.
It’s sad when my life revolves around wanting to block everyone out , and wanting to sleep forever , or getting drunk.
iit should be opposite i know
but our whole relationship.. all i’ve ever done was get stomped to the ground.
and before i knew it .. it was too late to even get picked up . i became acquainted with the fact that i was always getting stomped over.. no matter what i was always there.. and stuck by his side like nothing ever happened.
throughout everything .. throughout my heart getting ripped out of my chest a million times.
I miss him.
and i don’t know what to do.
it’s not even some stupid little romance story .. or omg i just fell in love for the first time..
this isn’t my first time falling in love.
this is my first time falling in love this hard though.
he was my bestfriend and boyfriend.
losing that sucks..
he got me through my life.
and now i’m more than lost.
can someone just please tell me what to do .. help me .. please.
it’s like my last desperate call.
i’m literally bawling my eyes out writing this….
nights like this my mind ponders. and i feel so alone
im stuck inside myself wondering if he’ll come back
praying he will.
i need him too.
i just need him to get his stuff together and realize what he had.. i need him, it’s almost sick
you can tell me you don’t need anyone or rely them that much
but you know what..
the feeling of never being able to explain how much you love someone because it means so much more than words can explain..
explain that.
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I’m sorry :'(
I know exactly what your going thru. I think you made the right move. Your right on target, if he really loves you and is able to man up and stop acting the way he does he will come back. Be careful with your heart, guard it carefully if and when he does try to come back.
The only thing I can tell you which unfortunately provides very little comfort is that the saying is true “time heals all wounds” how much time? depends. Depends on you, depends on how hard you work.
My suggestion for you would be to have a girls night if possible. If not watch some good movies and eat some icecream. Talk to friends on the phone, throw yourself into school/work/meeting new people. I’m always here to talk, ill give you my email/facebook if you like.
I wish I had more answers I’m trying to remember how I got thru things, basically I drank, cried a ton, smoked weed, went out with girlfriends and partied, went to school, talked to other guys and just tried to move on with my life. Bottom line is its a very hard, heartbreaking, gut wrenching, horrible process. You can try to numb the pain all you want but I really don’t suggest that because eventually the love/missing him/crying for him, will turn to anger and hate and that will stick with you for a while. its better to just go cold turkey feel the pain, try to deal with the pain, just know it gets a little easier each day. Just always keep in mind that this pain is only temporary you will get thru it.
good luck! 🙂
thank you , you’re too kind . can i have your facebook/email.
i need someone , and you’ve experienced it ..
you know what happens.
you’re the only one that can help me..
look up
brittany dutra
i’m the white girl holding a cat.
Good luck to you whatever you decide to do.
IDK if this will make you feel any better, but you did nothing wrong .. you were just following a feminine drive, the drive to tame (what people refer to as) an asshole
an asshole is a continious challenge
an asshole will make you go through the whole spectrum of emotions
an asshole isn’t predictable (boring)
youtube link: watch?v=0-2gAl3OYas
that zebra is a bit of an asshole 😛
it does make me feel better , thank you
all of this time i’ve felt like i’ve done something so horrible
that’s how he makes it out
but i can never figure out what in the hell i’ve done.
so thank you
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I respect your situation, but you are the most important person in the world, or at least you should be to yourself. No one can hurt you unless your beliefs allow an open door for people to come in and stomp on your heart. A relationship doesn’t validate or define you. You define you and are worth so much. The thing is, this is something you have to come to realize for yourself not with an egotistical approach but simply one of pure worth.
A lot of guys and girls on here get heartbroken when someone doesn’t respond to them to the way they expect. From my own experience relationships are always changing, they start, they end. That’s life, always changing, and the lesson is to learn to let go just in general. Cause you r the constant in your life and no one else. Best to care and look after you and not allow people to devalue your life so that you bring more harm to yourself. Many people believe it or not, would have left a long time ago because they know their self worth and it’s most important that the person they r with reflect the good feeling they have about themselves. This is in no way, criticism but encouragement for your own peace of mind and well being. All people need to realize that their experience is not a true reflection of the fantastic people they are. We have negative and positive experiences, but that doesn’t control our choice to put ourselves first in every way. Good luck.
thank you , it’s always nice hearing all of this , i feel like it makes me stronger on the inside , new outlook , but no matter what i’m still hurt 🙁
Me & my boyfriend was planning to get married last month, just last week we had some argument that made him get angry on me just because of the argument, he said we will not be married again and the next day he left me and we broke up. I still loved him and I wanted him to marry me, for me to get him back i had no choice than to contacted dr.marnish@yahoo.com to help me and he helped me to bring my lover back to me so we can continue our plan to be married. he came back after 3 days
Shelley Dustin
Spain
I can’t believe the above comment got approved instead of trashed for the spam it is. lolz
nice @Sad Bk
and im truly sorry for what you’re going through. but i can tell you that though it might get worse int he process, things will almost always work out fine. you willl get though it. <3
This post is almost a year old, and the OP never posted again. Hopefully she’s doing better now :\