i have never been the one to believe in suicide, but the feeling of this hurt is overwhelming. its almost like i cant breathe. im a 30ish something female, and i have a great career, children, family and friends. my husband left me earlier this year and my entire life was flipped upside down. i never saw it coming. i later found out that he was indulging in activities with another female. i was a good wife and my family is everything to me. i didnt do anything to deserve this. i dont eat, i have taken time off of work, my hair is falling out, i look like a skeleton, and i hate to leave the house. i have expressed my feelings to my husband about making out marriage work, but he wont give me a answer as to what he wants to do. i put my all into my marriage and i really want it to work. he blames me as the reason that things went wrong. i put up with him coming home in the wee hours of the morning, he never spent time with me and the kids, and all he wanted to do was go out with his friends. i feel like leaving the world is the only way to get rid of this hurt. i want him to feel like im feeling. i just want the satisfaction of him being embarrassed and feeling like a ass when im gone. i want him to wish he could do it all over again and see what a good person i was to him…….. i have been like this for 7 months and i dont see it getting any better anytime soon.
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Those who cheat and lie to their partners will always blame those partners for the problems. They hate taking blame even when it’s their own. It’s easier said than done, but you should froget about him and move on. I don’t know much about divorce courts, but if you want the kids you will likely get them. Don’t throw away your life on a dirtbag.
its hard when you put your all into someone and into your marriage. but im trying. but i keep coming back to the same conclusion………just do it.
First of all, he is a DICK. No one should EVER be treated the way you were. I’m not going to tell you what you should do, that’s your choice, but think about the person you are, versus the person he is. In my opinion, he’s the one that should be in pain, not you. Do what makes you feel better for now, and think about suicide carefully. I hope to god he gets his just desserts.
if he is in any pain, he has a great way of not showing it.
I know your pain is unique, your experience is yours only, but I have been in a similar spot three times. Married three times, cheated on three times, blamed three times, and died piece-by-piece three times. It’s the worst feeling, and no one else not experiencing it has a clue. I feel for you and wish there were something I could do to lessen the pain…
im just holding on until i cant anymore. its not fair. i could see if i did something wrong, but i didnt. all i do is work and take care of my family.