I have a learning disability and right now I’m attending a university. I did the best I can to do well in school. Sadly, seems like I was not smart enough for anything. Thus, I need to end this life. I will miss my parents and my siblings, but I’m a complete failure. I did the best I can in school. I study every day and never play video games much. I know its wrong for me, but the student loans and my failure makes me want to escape this cursed world. I was not meant to be born in this world. There had to be some mistake for me having an existence. I’m stupid and maybe this is nature’s way of working in natural selection. The smarter ones survive and change the world. right? I’m planning to find some way to kill myself and get this life over with. I prayed to god for help, but no answer. My faith is broken and my hope is gone. I wish I was never born. I damn my existence every day and every night. Its true that life is unfair. So, I’ll make life fair by ending my life. I failed my everyone in my family. The humiliation of facing them with my failure is too overwhelming. I really need to find this exit bag…..
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don’t give up i have social anxiety, depression and Schizophrenia. i don’t even take meds just give your all and never give up
not to say there arn’t days you just want to give up, i’ve had a fair share but you push through them and study
why should i keep going? What for? I’ll walk around knowing my failures. I have problems understanding things and I take too long to understand anything because of this learning disability. I hate myself so much. I really believe death is the cure for this problem. No cure for learning disability. Why should I move one? I see no reason….
i have failed so many times it’s not funny, i’ve gone back gone anti-depressants even though i try to cut the doeses, i went off all my meds for a year and hit such a low i started taking them again, i felt like a failure i didn’t go to school for a month and then i picked myself up dusted myself off, went back to school at this point i was failing but i sat down studied and i only stopped to eat and the bathroom. i fixed my grades and have staright A’s now recovery is possible it’s just more work
i study everyday. I push myself everyday and still this broken mind does not want to function correctly. I read the chapters over and over again. No progress. A broken mind is better left destroyed.
Why don’t you look at your good sides? Are you a caring person? Are you kind and people would miss you if you’re gone? Your smartness won’t define you as a person, your experiences with loved ones will. There are so many rich successful people living such meaningless lives. Don’t give up just because of social status, fuck people expecting high of you, you have the right to be happy your way! I suck at so many stuff and I bet you’re way smarter than many people out there. Don’t quit yet, live an adventure! Try different things that makes you happy despite people’s judgement, It’ll be cool!
i went to a doctor and he said he wanted to put me on meds, i said fuck no and then i went to professinals that helped me find a way to learn that suited me and helped me understand. try a docotr but don’t let them put you on meds right away unless there is no other option
i belevie in you
I have student loans to pay. I believed in my lies that I can do fine in a university. I’m so fucking stupid. I should’ve never have faith in myself. I hanged myself once, but I got too chicken to finish the job. I do have family that loves me, but how can I face them with all much fail. The student loans I have to pay back because of my own stupidity. I hate myself so much.
how much is your debt?
also if you kill yourself your debt goes to your family do you want to put that burden on them?
45 grand. Its getting too large because of me taking too long to graduate. I’m a senior and I know I won’t be able to finish this. Its over for me. Fuck this world and this damn planet. I just want out of this world for good.
Its there fault for telling me to have faith in myself. They should’ve told me to kill myself. I’m useless and what good will it do to be a slave paying all that back? I want to finish school, but what can I do? Not smart enough so fuck life.
just try to finish the course and even then lifes an adventure, when my dad “died” we had $250000 in debt to banks to pay we where a family with one parent who worked a mimimum wage job now my siblings are have managed to pay it off
Get assessed, find out what’s wrong. Medication can bring about substantial improvement in performance. There is no other way.
There’s a way. Its called “exit bag.” I feel for my family, but in reality, I blame my parents for giving me birth. I blame my dad because he’s nothing but a dog. He cheats on my mother and probably still cheats on her. My mother, I feel so sorry for her. She has too much faith or being positive in life. I see only negativity in this world. I was in special ed classes. I thought I was a pure retard. People call me stupid and my dad said I’m a retard. He’s right. I got my GED when I was 21 years old. I went to community college and transferred into a university. Finally, I’m a senior in the age of 25. I see no hope for me.
have you considered a trade coarse i know for a fact after 4 years of college you can make $38 an hour and thats nothing to laugh at
I just see no point to keep going. I’m tired of this life. I tried to be positive, but it looks like reality finally hits me in the face. There’s no such thing as hope. Its all a big lie we tell ourselves. I’m tired of lying to myself.
Thats nothing to be ashamed of. You could always acquire practical skills. There are lots of jobs out there for people with different skills. Stephen Hawking is super intelligent. If he applied for a job as a cleaner he would be rejected because of his physical limitations. Everyone has something to offer, you just have to figure that out.
it’s not lying you mabye you weren’t meant for what your doing right now. mabye you life is supposed to be in a diffrent direction. i tired killing myself after i failed physics chemistry and calculus, but i lived and i’m more thankful than ever i lived i knew my purpose was to live and help others with the same problems i have so i wanted to be a physologist so i went to summer school got a tutor and got in the 90% with all those three courses not i have a chance to do what i want beofre i wanted to be a nuclear engineer now i am going to work with the human mind. this is life telling you that your just going in the wrong direction and your meant to be something else
I’m tired of figuring out what use I’m to this shit world. I hate this world so much. This world was not meant for me. I cheated death two times. Maybe I should just get it over with and meet my end. I hate how life dealt me a crappy hand. The real joke is I can get even. Suicide is a great option. I know I will never see happiness in this world. My parents were people who should’ve asked twice on having a child. Its like they never think.
what i’m reading is you’ve been given a lot of chances to change your life even if nothing is right for you. why kill yourself even if you are in debt if you don’t pay the debt nobody is going to kill you there government loans why not just keep trying and see were it takes you. really what do you have to lose
I was a physics major once, but I failed in all of the classes. I switched my major to computer science, and I did fine last semester. However, I’m doing bad this semester. I’m giving it my all in all these courses and I had to drop one class. I’m done to two programming classes and I have an exam on Friday. I’m stuck on something i cannot understand for shit. I’m so angry with myself right now its unbearable. The hatred I have for myself is very large. I just want to jump off a fucking building and end it already. The hell with my family. I blame my father for even spreading his fucking genes. He’s the blame because all he wanted was his sons to become baseball players. What a fucking loser.
I owe sally mae loans, too. I took a chance or “leap” of faith to try and go out of state. What a fucking mistake I made. I’m telling you. Killing myself is the solution to this problem. There’s no way out of it. The government should’ve known I have a learning disability.
even if you fail this semester can’t you just redo it and a university should have tutors, sure you have to pay for them but it beats failing. try a tutor
I don’t have a job to pay for a tutor. I tried applying for internship and right now I’m trying to find work. I wish all this life end for me. I need to find a way to finish this life. I’m a loser and killing myself is a great option. This world was cruel to me and I want to get even. Killing myself with a smile on my face will let this world know that I died happy because I escaped my problems. I escaped from assholes and liars who only use people. I’m tired of all the bullshit. I’m studying right now for an exam and still this fucking brain won’t try to understand this material.
you might want to talk with a debt consultant then you might have fair grounds do reduce your debt
ask your parents for money, just try it you have nothing to lose a tutor is like $50 for an hour and a half
I don’t care anymore. I already found a way to buy an exit bag.
this isn’t the solution man, you can change your life for the better i know were your at right now and this isn’t the solution
College is just a *****. Some people just are not cut out for it(Im speaking of myself,not you) But at least you had the balls to try,I have ADHD and dyslexia so high school was hard enough. One day my teacher told me just to stop trying, she said she would pass me to get me out of high school and to just accept the blue collar life I have made for myself. And I really regret not trying, its not because we are stupid it because we have huge obstacles to overcome that most people would never think of. Your so close, stick with it. I am working in a factory, no actual education, just a paper that says I passed high school.I have had several work related injures shit sucks, thats why what your doing is so important. I see your logic I really do and Im sure there is stuff in the picture that we dont know but you just got to keep going so you dont end up like me. 20 years old with a busted body and enough money to live in meth head apartments
its the solution. Trust me. There’s never hope for people like me. I gave it my all. I see the reality of my life. Working in some shit job that makes me miserable. This is why I went to school. To find a better life. Since school is not going to do that for me. Or, any life or job in this fucking world will fill me with happiness. I shouldn’t kill myself in the dorm since I respect my roommates more than my parents. I’m pretty sure my roommates will call the cops if they find me trying to inhale helium and then things will get worse for me.
i need to go to study now but i just stick with your study and really work at it there is a solution to the majority of your problems and if you do fail at this a trades job is really well paying like a lot and tuition isnt that much but before i leave i want you to know i belevie that you can do this and you shouldn’t make any rash movements, think it over and sir, i ‘ll pray for you tonight… and just rememeber i care so do a lot of other people.
I feel your pain. I had a teacher telling me I’m not capable of doing anything in college. I proved her wrong by getting my GED and look where I’ am. Still, she’s right. I should’ve killed myself. This society ruined my life. America was suppose to have a great education for everyone. Sadly, its all bullshit. I like to learn and try to learn. I hate seeing people being put down because of others not caring. I wish I have the power to make everyone smart. I feel so helpless to try and help others. I sometimes believe I should leave America and start over somewhere in this world. Teach others about calculus and be creative with math.
thank you for your time. Study hard.
I’m going to study and give it all. I have an exam Friday and still I don’t feel ready. If there is a God, I hope this god can show me a miracle.
first off, not worried about you and i have a good reason.
ive been more depressed than you.
facts include: depression is something you slip into. ONLY THEN do you want to die and ONLY THEN do you see the world for “what it is”
depression is also something you can slip out of.
realize this. your “learning disability” isnt exactly that. you learn using different methods than typical people.
typical people are barely the majority.
the majority are catered to.
your debt can be delayed using the right methods. find someone who can help you and ask them to do it for free. its more like a rent, having to pay it off. plus, get your dad to give you money, even if its only a little here and there. you dont have to like him to take his money. it wont effect your mom.
oh and im pretty sure that you learn more easily when you are naturally enjoying what you are learning.
OH! and most importantly, it doesnt matter as much what you learn. all that matters is that piece of paper saying you graduated college. do whatever it takes to obtain that without harming or scaring anyone or trying to steal anything.
fucking vault of “i know im right. period” over here
your surroundings completely decide who you are, how you act and how you feel.
become…. in a different location… at least sometimes, temporarily.
join the military as… not a soldier. inside job. discipline with AC is very nice. people glad to be around you and shit.
gives you a solid way to act and you wont hate the people around you since they wont all be assholes who want to run around with a gun shooting people in the jungle. and they wont love miley cyrus or rap (hopefully lol)
seriously man.. take this to heart… your personality is like 10% of who you are.
your immediately-accessible (within a quarter of a day) surroundings are completely 90% of who you are.