My story leading to my major depression

Hi, my name is Tatyana, people call me tatty. As I was growing up everything seemed normal, mom always thought I had ADHD and everyone else said I was normal. But I wasn’t. My mom met the man ad her dreams, so she thought. He was nice, to her. Me.. Well he’d beat the hell out of me. He’s make me bleed, he smashed me so hard he got my blood on the wall and on my bed, I was only 5 years old. I’ve been in 8 foster homes. They were all horrible. Tryed killing myself when I was 7 I over dosed on my inhalers, then when I was 8 I started cutting my fingers with glass. They’d get pretty deep. Grades 5-7 I got made fun of and bullied cause I was bigger. I started making myself throw up. I started cutting my wrists they only got deeper and deeper. I have to get stitches 5 times. Should have been more times but I hide it from my parents. This year I tried killing myself so many times that I lost count, probably more then 30 times though. I over dosed myself on concerta twice. The first time I took 1188 mg’s I took 22 of my 54’s. I was admitted to the iwk children’s hospital. In the mental health ward. I was scared. Now I still haven’t changed I have thoughts in my head telling me to kill myself 24/7 I might listen to them soon. I now got diagnosed with anxiety, public anxiety and major depression.