So, hey.

So I’ll start from the beginning.

From a very young age I didn’t really have a “normal” family. My parents divorced when I was a few months old so for a couple of years it was just me, my mum and my brother. My dad was always in my life, more so now than he used to be, but still he was around. When I was about two we moved in with my stepdad. He has two sons so I now have my real brother and two step brothers, all older than me. However because of my parents being divorced my grandma was often used as a “halfway house”. My dad refused to see my mum and so we would be dropped off at my grandmas and then picked up by the other parent. So my grandma and grandad were big parts of my childhood. However I always felt ignored and belittled. My grandad was lovely to me when I was very young but as I got a bit older, say 7 or 8, he would make remarks about me. I was a chubby child but never really fat, that wasn’t how he saw it. He would often say little things about my weight which I would often cry about, however this was seen as a cry for attention. My brother and I used to fall out a lot, over petty things, but nevertheless it wasn’t nice. We would physically hurt each other and get each other into trouble which often led to me being called a liar. Then there was my parents. My dad would constantly ***** about my mum and vice versa. Being so easily influenced as a child this caused a lot of confusion as to who I could trust, I still don’t quite know now. My other grandparents were also a big part of my childhood, I had a lot of good times with them but then again a lot of bad times as well. My Nan and I never got along, I could pretend to like her but the older I got the less I could stand her bullshit. She is a rather snobby woman and I can’t stand it.

I’m trying to give you a quick overview of my family but it is rather difficult, I have a lot of relatives. That was also a negative factor. I am the youngest in a family of about 40+ people, often ignored and still to this day (although I’m 16) treated as a child.