I’m a very sensitive person. I just don’t understand how people can be so mean to people they don’t even know. Or being mean in general. You all know the saying “sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me.” But they do hurt, they hurt more then sticks and stones. I don’t know how to stop the words from entering my mind even after pushing them out. Words like; annoying, *****, lazy, fat, ****, mean, slut, whore. I have been called every single one. I tried to stop cutting but I cant.
I don’t have anyone to talk to. My sister hasn’t talked to me since she has gone to college and my parents are away. I lost all of my friends this year and they now call me all these names and start rumors about me.
I want to die.
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You really can’t take it to heart, I’ve heard those names before and mainly by my older siblings. And I’ve had racism from complete strangers before even though I was born and raised in England, people see what they want to see. You just have to get back up and not let it hit you so hard. You know you can always ring your sister up and let her know, if my sister rang me up and told me she felt like that I would make much more of an effort to keep in touch more often.
Thank you! I think I will call my sister now. and I try to not let these things get to me, I know its only high school, but its so hard and im such a sensitive person.
Again, I was not trying to be mean. I was pointing out something I found interesting.
Yes, you are a sensitive person. You must keep this in mind when interacting with others or you will continue to take things personally and distort comments. This is you putting your own feelings about yourself on to someone else’s intentions.
Remember what I said about self-absorption being a hallmark of low self-esteem? Well, when you assume that others’ comments are about you or perhaps directed at you to hurt you, that is egotistical. Not everyone is out to put you down; most people are too distracted by their own problems to do so.
But you came about that feeling honestly. If you have parents who are overly critical and put you down, you learn to expect that from the world. Not only that, but you learn that you have to constantly be on guard because someone may be trying to humiliate you, so you become defensive and on “everyone hates me” autopilot. Me, me, me.
But its not about you. Your parents suck and have some issues of their own. When people are mean, it has more to do with them than it does you. If you can learn to have compassion for such bitter souls instead of taking it personally, that may very well set you free.
I understand, it just gets bad at night. like I think of things at night that get me upset and I do take things personally but I cant change the way I am and im sorry I don’t know what egotistical means. I just want to be happy you know?
You can change the way you are…but it definitely won’t happen over night and it involves a lot of self-awareness and compassion towards yourself.
Egotistical means self-absorbed.
Night time is difficult for many people. Everything is quiet, still, and there’s not much to do but think. I find myself very depressed at night too sometimes. It can feel quite lonely, huh?
Being happy is more difficult than being sad but it pays off. Maybe next time you feel hurt by what someone says, stop and analyze it before you get really down on yourself. Why is that person saying that? They are obviously a wounded and angry person.
It will still hurt nonetheless, but the more you stop and think and simply take time to really separate yourself from someone else’s actions, you’ll notice that it really isn’t about you. It’s about them.
I think im going to try snuggling with my cat at night, it might be less lonely. your really helpful and nice and thankyou